Redmerski Quotes

[ ... ]after spending so long with someone [ ... ] they eventually begin to see through all of the things you think you're hiding from them so well. ~ J.A. Redmerski

You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, and the blood in my veins. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I want you, goddammit! ... The thought of you leaving at never seeing you again tears-me-up-inside! ... I can't fucking breathe without you! ~ J.A. Redmerski

But love isn't always roses and rainbows and butterflies in your stomach. It's equally cruel and painful and the world's worst villain. ~ J.A. Redmerski

To lovers and dreamers and anyone who
hasn't truly experienced either. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Dear Camryn,

I never wanted it to be this way. I wanted to tell you these things myself, but I was afraid. I was afraid that if I told you out loud that I loved you, that what we had together would die with me. The truth is that I knew in Kansas that you were the one. I've loved you since that day when I first looked up into your eyes as you glared down at me from over the top of that bus seat. Maybe I didn't know it then, but I knew something had happened to me in that moment and I could never let you go.

I have never lived the way I lived during my short time with you. For the first time in my life, I've felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I've known you for a short time, but I feel like I've known you forever.

I want you to know that even in death I'll always remember you. I'll always love you. I wish that things could've turned out differently. I thought of you many nights on the road. I stared up at the ceiling in the motels and pictured what our life might be like together if I had lived. I even got all mushy and thought of you in a wedding dress and even with a mini me in your belly. You know, I always heard that sex is great when you're pregnant. ;-)

But I'm sorry that I had to leave you, Camryn. I'm so sorry…I wish the story of Orpheus and Eurydice was real ~ J.A. Redmerski

Everybody starts out as strangers. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Well," Harry said with a grin, "a guy knows when another guy is interested in a girl and you could've puked in Isaac's lap and he would still have a thing for you. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I tried to will them with my super mental powers so he'd put them around my waist, but apparently I had no super mental powers. ~ J.A. Redmerski

You're the world to me," I whisper onto
her lips. "I hope you never forget that."
"I'll never forget," she whispers back.. "But if I ever do, for
whatever reason, I hope you'll always find a way to remind me."
... "Always. ~ J.A. Redmerski

As you are becoming stronger, Izabel, I am becoming weaker. I have stepped so far out of the only life I have ever known, that I do not know myself anymore. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Time is cruel like life. It slows down so that you can truly experience the worst moments of it. Only if you make it through them do you get to say 'It all happened so fast. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I left Mexico as Sarai, and came back as Izabel. And once I have what I came here to get, I will kill them all. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I want to do everything with you ~ J.A. Redmerski

I'm not helping any of you freaks!" she shouts. "I'm not the Witch of Wayland, you hear me? I'm sick of all you mutants pounding on my door for love spells and all the like! I told you, I don't do that backwoods modern-day, wannabe Wiccafuck stuff! You hear me? ~ J.A. Redmerski

I promise to love you forever in this life and wherever we go in the afterlife, because I know I can't go on in any life unless you're in it too. ~ J.A. Redmerski

She got pissed when I accused her of having Bieber Fever (it pisses me off that I even know what the fuck that means - I blame that on society) ~ J.A. Redmerski

He loves me without having to say it. He cherishes me without having to prove it. When he touches me I know what he's thinking, how he truly feels beneath that mask he wears in the face of others. I'm the only soul he's ever let into his life completely. And the only one he'll never let go. ~ J.A. Redmerski

We can't control death. There's nothing either of us can do to avoid it or to hold it off. All we can control is how we live our lives before it comes for us. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I guess by default we're all the ones shaking our heads at the stupidity of others until we're forced into traumatic experiences ourselves. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I... believe it, Atticus. Everything under the sun... will be ours. ~ Jessica Redmerski

It's my future and my life and I can't make myself live the way someone else wants me to. ~ J.A. Redmerski

You know damn well that it doesn't really matter what's going on in your life, who you just lost, how much you hate the world, or how inappropriate it is to have an attraction to someone before the mending phase has reached the acceptable zone. You're still human and the moment you see someone attractive, you can't help but make a note of it. It's human nature. ~ J.A. Redmerski

It's the people y'gotta watch out for. You never know who y'might meet, or what Ol' Man Fate has in store for yah. ~ J.A. Redmerski

She stops chewing and brings the chains on her wrist up to her nose and sniffs. She pulls away with a mild disgusted expression. Definitely smells like a skank ... ~ J.A. Redmerski

I think if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them ~ J.A. Redmerski

I don't listen to Justin Bieber or that crazy meat-wearin' bitch, so I guess you'll just have to do without. ~ J.A. Redmerski

She and I went to school with Shay Mitchell and Hayden Panettiere, Megan Fox was prom queen, Chris Hemsworth was prom king."
I make a clicking noise with my tongue.
"And there was Natalie's worst enemy, a cheerleader who tried to steal Damon away from her in tenth grade; Natalie said she was the slutty version of Nina Dobrev - none of these people really looked like them, not really anyway. Natalie is just ... odd ~ J.A. Redmerski

I think I've been afraid most of my life to be myself. ~ J.A. Redmerski

- and since nothing lasts forever, in the end everything that once was good, always hurts like hell. ~ J.A. Redmerski

...love is the only force in the world that can blind a person to even the most obvious truths. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The moment you betray your heart is the moment you lose everything. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Perhaps, Izabel, you should stop worrying about what you don't possess and focus all of your energy on what you do. No one can be good at everything. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I want you, godammit!" I scream at him. "The thought of you leaving and never seeing you again tears-me-up-Inside!" My throat burns like fire. "I can't fucking breathe withough you!"
"SAY IT! Son-of-a-bitch," he says, exasperated, "just say it!"
"I want you to own me!" I can hardly stand on my own anymore. Sobs rock my entire body. My eyes sting and my heart hurts like i never has before. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Victor Faust did much more than help me escape a life of abuse and servitude. He changed me.
He changed the landscape of my dreams, the dreams I had every day about living ordinarily and free
and on my own. He changed the colors on the palette from primary to rainbow - as dark as the colors
of that rainbow may be. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The open road is gone. The spontaneous stops and sometimes not knowing where we are but not giving a damn, is gone. ~ J.A. Redmerski

He's gawking at me when I open the door.
"Damn girl," he says, looking me over, "what the hell are you trying to do to me?"
I look down at myself, still trying to wake up the rest of the way and realize I'm in those tiny cotton white shorts and varsity tee with no bra on underneath. Oh my God, my nipples are like beacons shining through my shirt! I cross my arms over my chest and try not to look at him i the eyes when he helps himself the rest of the way inside.
"I was going to tell you to get dressed," he goes on, grinning as he walks into the room carrying his bags and the guitar, "but really, you can go just like that if you want."
I shake my head, hiding the smile creeping up on my face. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I am discipline. Sarai is rage. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Despite my growing fear, I still want to be right where I am, trapped in the merciless arms of a killer. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Just because one person's problem is less traumatic than another's doesn't mean they're required to hurt less ~ J.A. Redmerski

It is the best way, Sarai. To learn from your mistakes is to make them. Authentically. No amount of training, no rehearsed scenario is going to teach you better than the real thing. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Then why would you buy it?" I ask, and then answer for him sarcastically, "Oh it's a collectible. I get it. You could mount it somewehere in the backseat of the car." I smirk at him. "Or, I could put you in the backseat and mount it in the front." My mouth falls open slightly. Andrew grins and slides the record back in the box. ~ J.A. Redmerski

And when I get mad, I always cry. It's how I've been for as long as I can remember. And I hate it. ~ J.A. Redmerski

For anyone who has ever had a moment of weakness. It won't be painful forever, so don't let it get the best of you. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Andrew..,' I shake my head, tears rolling my cheeks, ' ... it was always you, I whisper harshly. 'Even with Ian, I felt something was missing. I told you, that night in the field; I told you that ... ,' My voice trails. I smile and say, 'you are my partner in crime. I've known that for a long time. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Two people unable to cry finally cry together and in the world ended today, we would be fulfilled. ~ J.A. Redmerski

It's not only about sadness. In truth, sadness really has little to do with it. Depression is pain in its purest form and I would do anything to be able to feel an emotion again. Any emotion at all. Pain hurts, but pain that's so powerful that you can't feel anything anymore, that's when you start to feel like you're going crazy. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I run behind her, letting her stay a few steps ahead of me so if she happens to fall I'll be there to laugh at her first and then help her up afterwards. ~ J.A. Redmerski

You made me feel real emotions. You unlocked me. ~ J.A. Redmerski

What I want is to be with you. That's what I want. It's all I've ever wanted. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Don't, he says and then places his free hand underneath mine. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I guess sometimes the greatest memories are made in the most unlikely of places, further proof that spontaneity is more rewarding than a meticulously planned life. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Laugh, I Nearly Died," Andrew answers. "You've probably never heard that one before. ~ J.A. Redmerski

There is a reason you didn't die that day,' I said with compassion, devotion, 'and it had nothing to do with cowardice. You deserved to live, and every day after that, because you had a purpose - and yes, you still had a family.' I pressed his hand firmer against my heart. 'I am your family, Atticus, and you are mine, and if you believe in fate, you'd see we were meant to meet, that everything that has happened to bring us together, was meant to be. ~ Jessica Redmerski

What the hell is this?' I ask turning around, holding up a box of Vagisil in my fingers.
He looks incredibly uncomfortable. 'It's ... well, you know,' he winces, 'for your ... girly parts. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The soundtrack of our time togeter, our short life together, has faded away as the last song on the album ends. All I can hear anymore is the smooth vibration of silence coming from the speakers. I feel like all I want to do us reach out and start it over again, but my hand won't move to press the button. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I know what you must be thinking: What a bitch. And you'll get no argument from me on that one. I was pretty messed up back then. I loved Elias with all my head, and that scared the hell out of me.
But I should get something out of the way before I dive into the excuses of why I was the way I was. I'm sure Elias sugarcoated me with his bias and all, but if this story is going to be told, then it needs to be told in its truth and entirety, without Band-Aids and training wheels.
I was fucked up. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Do what I could not do: stop loving me; put me out of your mind; go on with your life and live in happiness and peace without me.
Do what I could not do… ~ J.A. Redmerski

When you're with someone for so long you get used to them, y'know? It's a comfort-zone thing. When we get settled in our comfort zone, trying to pull us out of it even if everything about it is hell and unhealthy, is like trying to pull a fat ass couch potato out of his living room long enough to get a life. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The twins hobbled forward. "Freaks and dames and boys and things, drinks and bones and shiny rings," said the twin on the left.
"Ashes and earth will imprison the frail, blood of love will lift the veil," said the other. ~ J.A. Redmerski

If it makes you feel better, you can tell me to screw off if you want to refuse anything, but I hope you won't because I really want to show you how to live. - Andrew Parrish ~ J.A. Redmerski

If neither of us ever speaks again, I can live with that as long as we stay just like this. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Just that dwelling and planning is bullshit, you dwell on the past, you can't move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life. Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is you're going a lot faster and with less bumps in the road along the way. ~ J.A. Redmerski

He never leaves my side. And I know he never will. ~ J.A. Redmerski

One more thing: don't feel bad for not telling me that you loved me. You didn't need to say it. I knew all along that you did. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I'm not just sleeping with an assassin. I've grown very attached to one. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Andrew holds my face in his hands and he pushes my hair away from my eyes and he kisses away the tears that I tried so hard to keep hidden for his sake, so he wouldn't have to waste any of his strength on me. But the heart has a mind of its own and it walways gets what it wants, espcially when it's dying. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Love always comes first. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I don't think you ever really fall out of love with someone. I think when you fall in love, like true love, it's love for life. All the rest is just experience and delusions. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I believe that no matter what happens, or where we go, or if there's an afterlife, that we'll always be connected. Not even death can make me forget you, or forget that I love you. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I could die in this bed with him right now, wrapped in his arms and I would never know that I had died. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I'm not a follower. I never have been. But I'll definitely become someone I'm not for a few hours if it'll make me blend in rather than make me a blatant eye sore and draw attention. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Because we only have one life. We get one shot at making it worth living. We took our shot and ran like hell with it. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is you're going a lot faster and with less bumps in the way. ~ J.A. Redmerski

When I could hold my eyes open long enough, I did stare up at the rain pelting down on me. I've never looked at it like that, straight up into the sky, and while I flinched more than I could actually see, when I could see it was absolutely beautiful. Like each drop rocketing towards me was separate from the thousands of others and for a suspended moment in time, I could glimpse it and see its delicate facets. I saw the gray clouds churning above me and felt the car shake when the wind from the traffic pushed against it. I shivered even though it's warm enough to swim. But nothing I saw or felt or heard was as warm and fascinating as Andrew's closeness. ~ J.A. Redmerski

It's like the Earth becomes completely silent and still, and all that your mind can understand or feel is the vastness of the Universe and you gasp about your place within it. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I know you lost your partner in crime, but ... I want YOU to be MINE. Maybe WE should travel the world together, Camryn ... I know I can't replace your ex
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"Andrew ... it was always you. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I want you. I need you. I need everything that you are and everything you were and everything that you will be. ~ Jessica Redmerski

People generally cannot be trusted, especially in my profession where trust is such a rarity that it's not worth wasting the time and effort searching for it. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Cruelty is a human defect. Like racism and bigotry and homophobia and all that other shit that sometimes makes me ashamed to be human. ~ Jessica Redmerski

I just became Camryn Parrish. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The pain of being near her and knowing that I can't give in to my feelings for her, is the worst kind of pain I've ever felt. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Promise me that if I ever get Alzheimer's or dementia, and I don't remember anyone that you'll visit me every day and read to me like Noah read to Allie. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The past has shaped me, molded me into a monster. A monster with a persecuted heart and a dead soul. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I was wrong about you, Izabel," I whisper near her ear; the pain engulfing my insides. "I am the ticking time bomb. I am more unstable than I ever could have imagined. You are discipline, and I am rage. And the only way I know to control the chaos inside, is to eradicate the things that control me. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I will die for you, I will kill for you; I will stain my hands with the blood of a thousand men for you. ~ Jessica Redmerski

I think when you fall in love, like true love, it's love for life. All the rest is just experiences and delusions. ~ J.A. Redmerski

You may be the only good thing left in this world, and I'll be goddamned if I let your light fade. ~ Jessica Redmerski

I kissed her tears, and then I kissed her mouth, her cheeks, her nose, her forehead, her neck, and then her mouth again. I slipped her shirt off and kissed her heart. And I looked into the eyes of the woman I know I would die for one day, and my heart, as it always was when I looked at her and only her, was bursting. ~ Jessica Redmerski

Fuck what everybody else thinks. You're living for you, not them. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I don't know myself. I don't know what I want or how I feel or how I should feeland I don't think I ever really have. ~ J.A. Redmerski

I wonder if the ocean smells different on the other side of the world. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Because a storm is coming and I need to be prepared before it gets here. ~ J.A. Redmerski

But as I stood there dressed in a cute black pants suit and white button-up shirt and heels, I felt completely out of place. Not necessarily because of the clothes, but ... I just don't belong there. I can't put my finger on it, but that Monday and the rest of that week when I woke up, got dressed and walked into that store, something was itching the back part of my consciousness. I couldn't hear the actual words, but it felt like: This is your life, Camryn Bennett. This is your life. ~ J.A. Redmerski

The moment you see someone attractive, you can't help but make note of it. It's human nature. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Loyalty is not so unlike love: you do things for it that you would not otherwise do; you feel a terrible, all-consuming sense of responsibility to uphold it; you go the extra mile to prove it; and most of all, you accept the pain it creates because to deny it would be to deny the loyalty itself. The only difference between loyalty and love is that for love you do all of these things because you want to, and you would do them again, and again, and again. Loyalty is learned; love is organic. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Our story is over, yes, but our journey isn't, because we'll always live on the edge until the day we die. ~ J.A. Redmerski

A bus ride is like being in another world. ~ J.A. Redmerski

Coincidence is just the conformist term for fate. ~ J.A. Redmerski

She refuses to take the easy way out by accepting the get-out-of-jail-free card that I offered her. She refuses to be allowed mistakes and though I know she will still make them because she is human, she will learn faster from them than someone who chooses to accept the excuses. ~ J.A. Redmerski