Tarryn Fisher Quotes

That was the absolute worst thing about love; no matter how hard you tried, you could never forget the person who had your heart. ~ Tarryn Fisher

This feels natural, Kit and I acting on something that was already there. My eyes roll back in my head as he slides inside of me. And then I wake up. ~ Tarryn Fisher

If they could see my heart, they'd understand why my mascara is smudged. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I look away. I'm tired of liking him. I only have a day and a half worth of memories, but they're all filled with me not hating Silas. And now He's made it his personal mission to make me love him. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I don't want you to hurt. Why would you do that? ~ Tarryn Fisher

And my personal favorite, your lips." He smiled as a pink flush crept up my neck. "Full and sensual, puckered, and always turned down at the corners. They kind of make me want to kiss them until they smile. ~ Tarryn Fisher

That's what it's like to be a prisoner of anything. You want your freedom until you get it,
then you feel bare without your chains. ~ Tarryn Fisher

People eat right and exercise to preserve their lives, others drink and do drugs daring fate to take theirs, and then there are the floaters - the ones who try to ignore their mortality altogether because they're afraid of it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

The sum of all the things we shouldn't have done in our lives is enough to kill us with the weight. ~ Tarryn Fisher

The first time I saw her - my God - it was like I'd never seen another woman in all my life. It was the way she walked that caught my eye. She moved like water: fluid, determined. Everything else blended together in a blur and all I saw was her. The only solid in all that color. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You can't run away to find yourself. Yourself is there no matter where you go. The difference is- if your running you'll be too busy to pick up the sword and face your emotions. Sometimes your enemy will be you, sometimes it will be those who have the power to hurt you. Take off your shoes and stop running. Live barefoot and fucking fight. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Do you love me, or the idea of me? ~ Tarryn Fisher

He's living but he's broken. ~ Tarryn Fisher

An eye for an eye, I tell myself. A beating for a beating. ~ Tarryn Fisher

The seasons split at the seams: spring, summer, fall and winter. I've always pictured them as giant sacks filled with air and color and smell. When it's time for one season to be over, the next seasons splits open and pours over the world, drowning its tired and waning predecessor with its strength. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I've never eaten scallops, but he tells me they're his favorite. They have the texture of a tongue, and I briefly consider that he's sending me a message. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I once watched a natural dam break on television. I remember seeing a scenic picture of a river surrounded by trees. All of the sudden, the trees disappeared
sucked away by the collapse of the riverbank. A swell of angry water rushed around the corner wiping out everything in its path. It was sudden, and it was violent.
I see the dam break in Caleb's eyes. ~ Tarryn Fisher

What car are we taking?" she says all businesslike. "I thought you didn't want to." She snatched the coffee from my hand and looks at me over the rim. "Of course I want to, but I would look like a bad person if I didn't object at all." I shrug. I stopped trying to soothe my conscience years ago, but to each his own. ~ Tarryn Fisher

It is the last real kiss of my life. I forever cling to that kiss. It was goodbye and I'm sorry and I love you so much. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Humans seek connection above all else, and we are willing to destroy things to attain it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

The moon is wicked, jealous of the sun. People do bad things in the dark, under the hollow gaze of the moon. It's smiling at me now, proud of my sin. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I want a cigarette. I want a cigarette. I want to kill the woman my husband loves. This is all her fault. I got pregnant to secure the man that I had already married. A woman shouldn't have to do that. She should feel safe in her marriage. That's why you got married - to feel safe from all the men who were trying to siphon your soul. I'd yielded my soul to Caleb willingly. Offered it up like a sacrificial lamb. Now, I was not only going to have to compete with the memory of another woman, but a shriveled up baby. He was already staring into her eyes like he could see the Grand Canyon tucked away in her irises. I ~ Tarryn Fisher

This is a fast love culture, where people
fall in and out of something so sacred you wonder if it has the same meaning it did a hundred years ago. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I've always liked that name. She looks like an Estella." A catch in his voice. She looks like a bald, old man to me, but I nod. I am incapable of saying no to my husband, so it looks like the kid just got screwed. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I feel like you're always trying to sneak into my mind. You're like Peter Pan - always climbing in windows and causing trouble."
She scrunched up her nose. "Did you really just call med Peter Pan?"
"I've called you worse." I eased the car into traffic.
"A llama," she said. "I loved that. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You don't give an inch. That's why I like you, Olivia - no middle name - Kaspen. You make me work for every smile, every giggle ... ~ Tarryn Fisher

Hurt of this magnitude is like menopause," Phyllis tells me. I've just wiped my nose with one of the hats. She takes it from me and hands me a tissue. "Comes in hot flashes. Just when you feel like you can't take it anymore, it passes for a bit. But it comes back, boy does it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

It's like jumping backwards into a snowdrift and not knowing how deeply you're going to sink. ~ Tarryn Fisher

So then, it's fair to say that you were thinking about me all week?" Now it was my turn to look shaken. Damn. Just when I had him.
"No ... and ... . no, I will not go out with
you." I leaned back in my chair and decided to look at the score board. Maybe, if I ignored him, he would leave. The Black Eyed Peas were playing loudly over the speakers. I tapped my foot to the rhythm.
"Why not?" He seemed agitated. I liked it.
"Because I am a llama and you are a bird and WE are not compatible. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You have one lousy dream, and you think you're destined for coloring book greatness. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You shouldn't have to be forced to be strong on your own because no one will stand with you. Your dad failed you, Noah failed you. I will not fail you again. ~ Tarryn Fisher

There is no such thing as a clean slate. I know that now. You just embrace your dirty slate and build over it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Olivia was so beautifully broken. The hairline cracks in her personality were more pieces of art than flaws. I loved flawed art. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Olivia, you can have any man you want. Why him ? Why is it always about Caleb ?" "Because ... because I didn't need anyone until I met him. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I miss you. No, not just miss you, my heart aches every day because you're not there. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I have finally accepted that there are consequences to every action. I earned them and they are rightfully mine. There is no time to make bad decisions. Every step is precious. The definition of living is mine. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I was in the middle of an existential crisis and he was making me his person. How could he afford to be that honest? I was cheap. I fell for it because most of us just really want to be wanted. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Go be with your husband ... before he realises that he's still in love with me ~ Tarryn Fisher

You said you would never hurt me."
His eyes are frigid. "That was before you fucked with my daughter. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You must not let hatred destroy you. You will lose your soul. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Kidnappings made for ransom were fast and messy; guns pointed at your head, urgent demands. Not keypads on the door and enough food to last through one of George R.R. Martin's long winters. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Girls clamored for Caleb's attention like chimps on crack. He's got the banana that every girl wants, ~ Tarryn Fisher

I loved flawed art. Michelangelo's statue of Lorenzo with its warped base that rose to accommodate his foot, the Mona Lisa's missing eyebrows. Flaws were seriously underrated. They were beautiful if you looked at them just so. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Because, I see the world in different shades of Olivia. I'm comparing them to you - not the other way around. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Ok. I'm going to hang here for a while." Cammie smiled sugar-sweetly up at me. Her face looked innocent, but her eyes looked evil. I could see the gossip monster crawling its way up her esophagus and pushing frantically behind her mouth to be let out. ~ Tarryn Fisher

It's time to stop waiting, isn't it? To be ready. For life to start. I'm not even sure what I was waiting for. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I can't stay the way I am. I don't remember what it's like to be free. To be wide open without fear. I need something to break me. Just enough so that I have new pieces to work with - make them into something else. I don't want to give anyone the right to treat me like a loser. I don't want to be fat, I don't want to live in the Bone, I don't want to be without knowledge. I won't be the girl who people laugh at. Not anymore. Good thing I memorized their license plate. Just in case. ~ Tarryn Fisher

The day I fell in love with you was the first day you found yourself. You weren't even mine yet. ~ Tarryn Fisher, F*ck Love

It's better that you leave her alone," she said. "There isn't just water under your bridge, there's maggots and shit and dead bodies. Now, get the fuck out of my house before I call the police. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Don't be upset that you can't attain constant happiness. It's the quickest way to feel like a failure in life. If each of our lives represented a page in a book, happiness would be the punctuation. It breaks up the parts that are too long. It closes off some things, divides others. But it's brief - showing up when it's needed and filling tired paragraphs with breaks. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Mormons believe that when they get married in this life, they stay married in the next. I was thinking that we should convert to Mormonism." "Well, that's most certainly a viable option for us, Duchess. But, what if we're married to our first spouses in the next life?" She grimaces. "I'd definitely be less fucked than you. ~ Tarryn Fisher

She is playing games with someone who knows how to play them better. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I am crouched in the trashy novel section, looking for cheap thrills and deep skills. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You're my hiding place. I go to you when I'm messed up. ~ Tarryn Fisher

But you are very good at passion. And if you have enough passion, you can almost learn to do anything well. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Olivia, I once told you that I would love again, and that you would hurt forever. Do you remember?"
She nods. It's a painful memory for both of us.
"It was a lie. I knew it was a lie, even as I said it. I've never loved anyone after you. I never will."
I walk out.
Walk away.
No more fighting - not for her, or with her, or with myself.
I am so sad. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Why do you always try to downplay my feelings for you?"

"I don't trust them," she says after a minute. "You claim that you love me, but you've loved other women in between. ~ Tarryn Fisher

As far as I was concerned children had bipolar disorder. They were angry, unpredictable, emotional ambulance-sirens with pigtails, grubby hands and food-crusted mouths that twisted from smiles to frowns and back again as quick as a breath. No, thank you very much. If I wanted a three-foot warlord as my master, I'd hire a rabid monkey to do the job. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Sadness is an emotion you can trust. It is stronger than all of the other emotions. It makes happiness look fickle and untrustworthy. It pervades, lasts longer, and replaces the good feelings with such an eloquent ease you don't even feel the shift until you are suddenly wrapped in its chains. How hard we strive for happiness, and once we finally have the elusive feeling in our grasp, we hold it briefly, like water as it trickles through our fingers. ~ Tarryn Fisher

There are cities that take your breath away by their sheer size; some by the beat of their rhythmic culture, but Seattle gives you your breath back. Fills your lungs. I take it in and feel like I can breathe for the first time in my life. My God, it's like I've been looking for this place all along. My ~ Tarryn Fisher

You want your freedom until you get it, then you feel bare without your chains. I wonder if we ever get out of here, will we feel the loss? ~ Tarryn Fisher

Lies, it sounds demented to want a woman's lies. But, Olivia loves you with her lies. She lies about how she's feeling, how she's hurting, how she wants you when she tells you she doesn't. She lies to protect you and herself. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I fell in love underneath a tree. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You'll be surprised what someone is able to handle given no other choice. ~ Tarryn Fisher

The best kind of love is the love that isn't supposed to happen. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Love comes slow, but God does it go fast. He was beautiful - then he was ugly. I esteemed him, then I esteemed him not. ~ Tarryn Fisher

People can smell kindness on you even when you act like an asshole to scare them away. ~ Tarryn Fisher

An invisible hand cracks open my jaw and pours fear down my throat. I choke on it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

There is a string that connects us that is not visible to the eye. Maybe every person has more than one soul they are connected to, and all over the world there are those invisible strings ... Maybe the chances that you'll find each and every one of your soul mates is slim. But sometimes you're lucky enough to stumble across one. And you feel a tug. And it's not so much a choice to love them though their flaws and through your differences, but rather you love them without even trying. You love their flaws. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You are going to destroy me, you know that?' I knew. ~ Tarryn Fisher

He makes you feel like you're the only person worth having a conversation with, and then he goes a year without having a conversation with you. The disappointment is vast. He will never build that model car with you, he will cancel dinner plans and birthday plans and vacation plans. He will choose work and someone else over you. He will break your charmed hopeful heart time and time again. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You can read a lot about a person by their features and what they do with them. But, getting to know someone, who they really are, takes time, he said. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I shake my shoulders to get rid of all my feels. I hate these people. They're so annoying. Except I king of like Silas. Kind of. ~ Tarryn Fisher

It's the worst form of torture a person can imagine - the wait to die. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I was waiting for you - for years. I didn't live. I just waited for you to come back. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Do we create our own heroes and then kill them with the truth? ~ Tarryn Fisher

You have to voice your thoughts so you can know you're not the only one who's fucked up. ~ Tarryn Fisher

She could refuse to have sex with me every day for the rest of our lives and I still would choose her. That's how deep I was in this. - Caleb Drake ~ Tarryn Fisher

He looks at me then, and suddenly I know that people are what you truly need to be afraid of. People with eyes that communicate. People who can hurt you so hard you'd wish you were never born. ~ Tarryn Fisher

It's okay to talk to yourself here; I saw someone else doing it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Love is faithful, love is kind, love is patient. Love is not - I wasn't thinking. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Leah" Olivia says quietly, "if you point at me again I'm going to break that manicured finger right off your hand. Now turn around and smile, your daughter is waking up. ~ Tarryn Fisher

One thing to know about me: I dig. If I can't find it - I dig deeper, harder. I dig until I find it. The only thing I couldn't dig into was my own mind. I didn't want to see it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Love sticks, and it stays and it braves the bullshit. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Women are stuck in a cycle of insecurity perpetuated by the way men treat them, and we are constantly fighting to prove to ourselves and everyone else that we are okay. ~ Tarryn Fisher

You keep them fed, or they'll take you out. Like Gremlins. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I finally felt ready to put my broken
love to rest. But, you couldn't put something to rest when it kept coming back to haunt you. ~ Tarryn Fisher

We were both on the search for something true at the same time. Sometimes a person's truth is another person's love. ~ Tarryn Fisher

We all do don't we? We are consumed with our own mortality. Some people eat right and exercise to preserve their lives, others drink and do drugs daring fate to take theirs, and then there are the floaters - the ones who try to ignore their mortality altogether because they're afraid of it."
"Which are you?"
He set down his knife and looked at me.
"I've been all three. And now I'm undecided. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Shunned by association. ~ Tarryn Fisher

I'd rather be the bastard daughter of a prostitute than ever share your blood. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Their story will never be over. ~ Tarryn Fisher

It's just nicer to be crazy than to be unloved. ~ Tarryn Fisher

My mother hasn't been speaking to me. She wanted me to forgive Neil, which was fine. There was room in my heart for forgiveness; there wasn't room in my life for someone who constantly needed it. ~ Tarryn Fisher

He is a longing I will never cure. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Olivia married sexy Ghandi. No wonder she loves her husband. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Well, look at us … All together again, like eight fucking years of lies and bullshit never happened. ~ Tarryn Fisher

She burned hot enough to keep everyone away. It was a good trick, except I played with fire. ~ Tarryn Fisher

That's how the truth works. If you avoid looking at it, you can pretend it's not there. ~ Tarryn Fisher

Don't look at me like that," I said. "I'm not broken because I don't want the same thing as everyone else. And, no, you're not invited to fix me, or soften my heart, or make me want things I never knew I wanted. ~ Tarryn Fisher