Tillie Cole Quotes

If there's a sure-fire way to stop the awe of meeting a celeb, it was for them to be a complete and utter twat. ~ Tillie Cole

A home is not a place. It's not a country or a town or a building or possession. Home is with the other half of your soul, the person who shares in your grief and helps you carry the burden of loss. Home is with the person who throughout it all never gives up on you and brings you eternal happiness. ~ Tillie Cole

I love you, princess. You fucking saved me. Not sure if you know it. But you saved me."
"Tanner--".
"And now I get to save you. ~ Tillie Cole

Without thinking it through, I reached out and took her hand in mine, wrapping our fingers around each other's. Kisa gasped and said, "Luka, what are you doing?"
I shrugged. "Holding your hand."
"Why?" Kisa whispered, staring at my thumb stroking her skin. She was so soft.
"Because I have to," I answered honestly, and she seemed to stop breathing for several minutes before exhaling, her long eyelashes fluttering when she looked at me.
"Okay," she whispered, and something warm spread in my chest and down to my stomach. "I…I like it."
I smiled and Kisa blushed again. "Me too. I'm going to hold your hand all the time now. I'm never going to let go. ~ Tillie Cole

He never forgot about you, Mae. Growing up, I watched him sign to Ky about you all the time, his chick with the wolf eyes. The chick behind the fence, the chick he kissed. It was constant. His precious number three, whatever he meant. ~ Tillie Cole

She'd drilled through to my fucking soul…the tainted soul I never ever wanted anyone to see. ~ Tillie Cole

I don't want to hurt you."

Her head tilted to the side and she smiled. "That's why I want to do this more than ever." Her eyelashes fluttered against her cheeks. "Because you care enough to stop at the thought of causing me pain. Because, even though I can see how desperately you want to be inside me, you're going slow, you're making sure I'm safe."

"Because you're my girl," I replied. Elsie's eyes glossed at my statement. ~ Tillie Cole

Because for me, you are truth. My truth. My heart, is all you. ~ Tillie Cole

He was Gabriel now. One of the fallen. And the one who would save them all. He didn't know how. But he would. He was determined. ~ Tillie Cole

Why Kisa?" I asked. "Why is it like this between us?"
Kisa dipped her eyes, not saying anything for a while, but then she smiled shyly and murmured, "Whatever our souls are made of-"
"His and mine are the same." I finished off, the words coming from some locked-away memory in my mind. ~ Tillie Cole

I leaned into her hand. Twenty-six years old and a single touch was gonna make me blow in my jeans. ~ Tillie Cole

You see, Pix, I have scars too. It's just mine are on the outside where everyone can see. ~ Tillie Cole

But now, when he smiles at you, his eyes smile too ~ Tillie Cole

He explains, the times where there is only a single set of footprints were not when He walked beside them, but instead, when He carried them. ~ Tillie Cole

Luka had a kind smile and the most beautiful dark-brown eyes. But it was Luka's upper left Iris smudged with a small splash of blue that made our mothers think we were destined to be. Mama said God placed a piece of my eye within his so we would always know we shared one soul. ~ Tillie Cole

Gripping her finger, I brought it to my lips and kissed it, my chest almost exploding as I confessed, "Because I fuckin' love you, Li...I'm fuckin' insane over you. You ain't no burden."
Lilah sucked in a deep breath and her eyes widened. "Ky...why?"
I huffed out a laugh. "Stupid fuckin' question, sweet cheeks," I replied. "Like asking me the impossible. I just do. I fuckin' love your crazy pilgrim ass. ~ Tillie Cole

We're star crossed, Shakespeare. Fateful star-crossed lovers. We have a lifetime to get to know each other, unlike our namesakes. I'll makes sure we get our happily ever after. ~ Tillie Cole

My thighs ached from the force of his grip. My back ~ Tillie Cole

Just try and live. Try and be happy. Or else, what's the fucking point? ~ Tillie Cole

A queen bows to no one, especially to her king. ~ Tillie Cole

When you're near, my heart doesn't sigh, it soars, ~ Tillie Cole

...And I think I just fell in love with you... ~ Tillie Cole

No talking baby," I whispered as my lips closed in on hers. "I'm gonna kiss you now and I'm gonna show you how fuckin' good it feels. ~ Tillie Cole

Poppy sighed, a peaceful smile gracing her face. Then Poppy closed her eyes, tilting her chin up for her final kiss, her hand squeezing mine.

Lowering myself to her mouth, I pressed the softest, most meaningful kiss to her soft lips. Poppy breathed out through her nose, her sweet scent engulfing me … and she never breathed again.

Reluctantly pulling back, I opened my eyes, now witnessing Poppy in eternal sleep. She was as beautiful now as ever she was in life. ~ Tillie Cole

I was wrong. So damn wrong. You need a strong man, babe. You need a man to love you, to protect you, to be your fuckin' world." Her breath paused and I smirked. "It's me, babe. It's so fuckin' me. ~ Tillie Cole

As they say in Hollywood, that's a wrap! And the oscar goes to Tudor North and Tash Munro for an outstanding debut performance in a sex scene! ~ Tillie Cole

I do not know how to be of help."
I felt her in my arms. "You are, just by being here," I said. "You help because you understand. No other person has ever understood me like you do." I held her close. "You understand me, and I get you. ~ Tillie Cole

I tapped the clock drawn in black eyliner around my felt eye. "Tick tock, Rabbit. Always and forever, tick tock. ~ Tillie Cole

That's because we were never apart. Since we were kids, we were one. It has always been that way. We found a way back to each other, my love."
Luka's eyes bored into mine, a flare of possession in their glare. "And will always be that way," he said assertively. "I'm never losing you again. ~ Tillie Cole

That is who I will be to Flame – wife, soul mate, angel. It does not matter in what terms Flame refers to me. He will always be the one my soul knows. He will always be the one my heart will rely on, when it is me who needs to be saved. That is what angels do, Asher. They guide and they save. If he needs me to be his angel right now, then that is who I will be. ~ Tillie Cole

My heart slammed in my chest. "Yeah. The most beautiful," I answered. ~ Tillie Cole

My Kisa-Anna…my solnyshko…God put a piece of your blue eyes in mine so we would always know we matched… ~ Tillie Cole

I do not want you to think I am not happy or that I do not love you. Because I do, more than I can explain. Psalms are poems; you are mine. You are the embodiment of every divine word that could slip from my lips. I adore you, Ky. I can no longer imagine my life without you in it. You are my white dove. You fill me with peace, love, and devotion. ~ Tillie Cole

Talia made me someone. I was her Zaal.
But alone, I was nothing more than a number. ~ Tillie Cole

You getting on or what, beauty queen? Looked like you were trying to hitch a ride. ~ Tillie Cole

We are the Carillo Boys. Three brothers born into chaos and pain. Three brothers who'd endured tragedy and loss. Brothers until the end, bound by blood, our bond unbreakable by unconditional love. ~ Tillie Cole

My mama's white and my papa is black. I'm your worst fucking nightmare, ~ Tillie Cole

My heart is now in your hands. You have honor, and pride, and the kindest soul in existence. ~ Tillie Cole

Pushing Elsie back, I said, "I'm not the most special guy in the world. I'm no one's perfect dream. I'm not sure I'll ever do anything extraordinary with my life. I'll always be that little bit awkward, and that little bit too shy. I'll always blush and dip my head, but if you'll let me, I'll be the one that's there for you. I'll be happy knowing I've got you and you've got me. That's enough for me, to be the one that you can lean on, to be the one to tell you you're beautiful every day. And talk to. I'll adore every sound that comes out of your mouth. I'll be the one to love you like nothing you've ever seen, bella mia." I blushed with embarrassment, but managed to rasp, "If you'll just let me… If you want me."

Elsie sobbed out a cry, tears tumbling down her rosy cheeks. "Levi. You are my dream realized, in every possible way. You are the most special person in my world. And I love that you blush - because I do too." She wiped at her cheeks. "I love that you're shy, and," her breathing hitched, "I love that you love my voice. I love that I never have hide who I am, disguise how I sound. Because I'm tired of trying to please others." She dipped her eyes and almost flattened me when she said, "You're my kind of extraordinary. Levi Carillo, you're the sweetest of souls. ~ Tillie Cole

For the first time in my life, I feel wanted... like I finally belong. There is nowhere on Earth I would rather be than here with you. You do not cage me, Styx. You make me soar. ~ Tillie Cole

Why does it take a life ending to learn how to cherish each day? Why must we wait until we run out of time to start to accomplish all that we dreamed, when once we had all the time in the world? Why don't we look at the person we love the most like it's the last time we will ever see them? Because if we did, life would be so vibrant. Life would be so truly and completely lived. ~ Tillie Cole

I had lost you…I didn't care much about anything after that…until you saved me in the alley and my heart began to beat again." She sucked in a breath. "I hadn't even realized it'd stopped. ~ Tillie Cole

From the minute we met you, I could see in you what I see I him every day…loneliness." My chest tightened at his words. Because they were real…they spoke the truth. "Two people who are lost, two people who don't know how the fuck to escape the darkness they're living in. ~ Tillie Cole

When you're ready, look up. I am waiting for you, baby. I'll always be there, waiting for you. ~ Tillie Cole

You fuckin' bulldozed me, Pix. You, my tiny dark pixie, made all my defences crumble to dust. ~ Tillie Cole

I love you, baby. We're gonna get you through this, 'cause, fuck, you deserve more to life than what you've been getting. You deserve to be happy with me. ~ Tillie Cole

A fucking pint-sized warrior. ~ Tillie Cole

You can have me, solnyshko. You can have all of me. You always have, and you always will. ~ Tillie Cole

Yeah, yeah, I was whipped, and I honestly couldn't give two shits about it. In fact, I fucking loved it. ~ Tillie Cole

I was content to lie in his arms.
I was content to comfort the monster.
Because this monster deserved my care.
He needed to be loved.
By me. ~ Tillie Cole

As I lay there, kissing both these men that'd so captured my soul, I realized that a heart is infinite. Love can expand and expand. My heart could hold as much as I was willing to let in. ~ Tillie Cole

You belong to me, you're mine, and right now, in this bed, I'm gonna do something else for the very first time. We both are."
I held my breath, too afraid if I exhaled I would ruin the moment and never know what he would reveal.
"I'm gonna make love to you, Lilah. I'm gonna take you as mine, possess you. 'Cause there ain't no one out there… no one else who could do this to me, but you."
… Pressing his forehead against mine, he inhaled a ragged breath and murmured, "I fuckin' love you, Lilah. This, us, baby, it's more than just fucking. You get that, yeah? ~ Tillie Cole

I kissed her again, slow and soft. Poppy's eyes remained closed afterward, then as a blush spread on her beautiful dimpled cheeks, she whispered, "A forever kiss with my Rune … in our blossom grove … when he finally came home."
She smiled.
I smiled.
Then she added, "… and my heart almost burst. ~ Tillie Cole

You have light within you, Styx, and I feel it shining through like the rays of the midday sun. It is beautiful. You are a good man. ~ Tillie Cole

Heaven's Door"

I'd search the world for Heaven's Door,

Over mountains and valleys, each sandy shore.

I'd find the stairway, soaring through clouds,

I'd climb each step, without making a sound.

I'd arrive at the door of glimmering gold,

I'd slip through unnoticed, not stirring a soul.

I'd gasp at its beauty, at its rivers and trees,

I'd stray from the paths, I'd hide among leaves.

I'd tiptoe unseen, under sun and sky blue,

I'd search every corner until I found you.

I'd capture a tear, catch a glimpse of your hair,

As you danced and you twirled, without any care.

You'd smile and you'd laugh, like a bird you'd be free,

I'd try not to cry, you're there without me.

I'd stay my hand from touching your face,

From calling your name, to feel your embrace.

You'd open your mouth and your voice would be pure,

I'd treasure the sound, no more pain you'd endure.

I'd stay 'til the sunset, when I'd have to leave,

A pain in my heart, my spirit in grief.

I'd blow you a kiss, let it drift to the sky,

I'd whisper 'I love you' and bid you goodbye.

I'd pass through the door, I'd descend out of view,

Knowing that one day, some day, I'd again be with you.

- Elsie ~ Tillie Cole

She looked at me like I was suddenly her whole world. I felt that look sear right into my heart. Ain't no one ever looked up on me with such grace, with such trust before, and I felt humbled that she chose to gift it to me
… All anyone ever saw when they looked at me was the white trash ex-gang member from the Heighter-famed trailer park across town.
But not her.
Fuck knows why, but Pix only ever saw more. ~ Tillie Cole

I sighed in relief as my words began to come clearer. It was her- fuckin' number three. My goddamn miracle. ~ Tillie Cole

But most of all . . ." He took a deep breath. "Most of all . . . I fucking hate that I want you so much. ~ Tillie Cole

He kissed me until there was no part of me that didn't know who it belonged to. He kissed me until my heart again fused with his - two halves of one whole. ~ Tillie Cole

This isn't the end. It's just a little pause in our lives. And I'll be watching over you, every single day. I'll be in your heart. I'll be in the blossom grove that we love so much, in the sun and the wind. ~ Tillie Cole

The scars on her face had freed her of her demons. She thought herself ugly. I thought she was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen in my life. ~ Tillie Cole

I forgive you. I love you. It is time to be free."
…
"I love you too," I said raggedly. "You have been the only good I've ever known. You've been the heaven I was searching for after all. Not the faith, or the prayers…just you…only you. ~ Tillie Cole

I think we were meant to find each other, AK. I think we were meant to find each other, to leave hell together." I didn't reply. I had no words. "I think that no solution is quick, and no remedy will magically make our pain drift away. I believe that we must go on through this pain we are feeling in order to move on. And I believe whatever God or greater power exists above us brought us together so we may heal together. Heal the other in a way that no other person could. ~ Tillie Cole

He was sin personified... A sin I craved... ~ Tillie Cole

My…Something within me, here," I pointed to my heart. "Here." I pointed to my stomach. "And here." I pointed to my mind. "Tells me I should have you. That you should belong to me. That you do belong to me, and that I belong to you. ~ Tillie Cole

What if we are being held in midnight, AK? Both of us locked in the dark of our pasts. Together. And maybe we must endure the darkness for a while."
I swallowed, eyes fixed on hers.
"But then, one day will come the sunrise. The darkness will need, and the sunlight will pour in. Sunrise, AK. Just imagine." She smiled and nearly broke my fucking heart. "We can chase the sunrise together. We can be the sunrise…together."
"Yeah" I said, unable to get the word 'sunrise' from my head. I wanted that. I wanted the fucking sunrise. I wanted the sunrise with Red. ~ Tillie Cole

You're not the villain in this story, you're the beautifully flawed hero. You're the dark hero who has been sacrificing himself all along so others would be safe…and you did it all fully understanding that no one could ever know. But I know, and I don't care what anything thinks of me for giving my heart to you. ~ Tillie Cole

I'm going to steal another kiss."
A wave of heat crashed over me and I replied, "Good." Valentin went to move in when I stopped him with a hand on his chest.
He immediately stilled and frowned. "Zoya?" he questioned.
Swallowing back any nerves trying to creep into my heart, I said, "I want this with you." Lifting my head to move into his personal space, I added, "I want you, Valentin, to steal the rest of me. ~ Tillie Cole

Babe, you're my best kinda therapy ~ Tillie Cole

Your eyes remained haunted. Seeing something in the world that your mirth can not dissolve." I ~ Tillie Cole

We are Flame and Maddie. And we have survived. ~ Tillie Cole

The boy River had grown into Styx the man and, despite his flaws and his harshness, he was all I wanted. All I had ever wanted. ~ Tillie Cole

I know what you're thinking: surely these two amazing kids were in the popular crowd? But alas, John was as bent as a butcher's meat hook, and I was as fat as a pig. ~ Tillie Cole

And that is when I knew. I knew that what I was feeling was love. It had to be. Because it was all-encompassing and irrational, yet at the same time it felt so perfect and true. ~ Tillie Cole

They were always meant to be together, one boy and one girl, two hearts split in two, sent to far-off lands on their own. For God wanted to see if true love could be tested. He wanted to see if two halves of one soul could find each other again, even against the odds. Years would pass. They would both be hurt. They would both be sad, but one day, when they least expected it, they would stumble into each other's paths. The question is: would they recognize each other's soul? And would they find their way back to love…? ~ Tillie Cole

I came to college to study, Cass, not to whore myself out to drunken frat boys!"
She gaffawed. "Whatever, darlin', you won't be thinking of studying when your ankles are wrapped 'round some stud's neck as he wears you like a necklace, tickling your belly button from the inside! ~ Tillie Cole

Together, we make happiness. ~ Tillie Cole

He placed his hand over his heart and said, "You have made me feel, in here. You have made me want things I never dare let myself want. You have made me want to fight for survival, not pride. I no longer want to die on the pit's sand, like a warrior. I no longer I want to die at all … You make me want to live. ~ Tillie Cole

Then that fuckin' nose twitched again. And I sank back into my woman... a pair of wolf eyes bringing me home. ~ Tillie Cole

I love you. I love you beyond anythin' I could've ever imagine was possible. ~ Tillie Cole

This is the whistle-stop memoir of how a lower-middle-class girl from the north of England one day changed the way she lived her life and set off on a bumpy path that ultimately led her to her own slice of the happily-ever-after pie. ~ Tillie Cole

I'm not good," he argued. "I don't believe that."
I smiled. Pressing my forehead to his, I said, "Then I will believe it for you. ~ Tillie Cole

Famiglia isn't always blood, mio caro. Famiglia is built on bridges of love. Famiglia is there for you without condition. Famiglia supports you in your darkest moment of need. ~ Tillie Cole

He had taken a piece of my tainted soul...of my heart...and made him a part of me. He was in my every cell, my conscience. He was simply part of me. ~ Tillie Cole

A small smile transformed his normally hardened features and he took my hand and ran it across his ribs. "Are they all there?"
I frowned. "What?"
"My ribs. Is there one missin'?
My hand smoothed up and down his sides. "Okay, I think you've lost it. You think you're missing a rib?"
He exhaled a quiet laugh. "Just thought God took one of mine when he made you. ~ Tillie Cole

We all have secrets. Secrets well buried. Until we find the one soul who makes the burden of such secrets just that little bit easier to bear. ~ Tillie Cole

You have me, Valentine. I am not going anywhere. I'm here for you, with you…in love with you.
…"You're mine? You belong to me?"
Smiling though the emotions wrapping me in their hold, I nodded my heart. "Yes, I am yours. ~ Tillie Cole

Fine, I fuckin' love the pilgrim bitch. You happy? Can't get her outta my head. Can't see anyone but her. ~ Tillie Cole

I get so lonely that at times, I literally think it might kill me. ~ Tillie Cole

I have to protect you Kisa-Anna. I believe I was made to protect you. ~ Tillie Cole

What are words? Sometimes the flick of a pair of eyes or the flush of skin reveals everything you need to know. Words can wound. Silence can heal. ~ Tillie Cole

She would never want me. I'm a fucking retard." I hit the side of my head with the heel of my palm as my eyes blurred again. "I don't think right in here. I'm fucked up - I don't get people, they don't get me. And I ain't ever gonna be able to read people. Why would someone as perfect as her want someone as fucked up as me? Someone who isn't right in the head? ~ Tillie Cole

Underneath the scars, the muscles, and the tattoos was a hurt and lost man. ~ Tillie Cole

That stunning fuckin' smile. I ain't ever seen you smile in the whole time you've been at the compound."

I lost my smile, then replied, "Because I do not have reason to smile very often."

Ky's fingers began tracing the back of my hand. "Then you make a reason, Li. Don't make excuses for living a shit life. It ain't rocket science. You don't like something, find something you do. Don't like being around someone, stay the fuck away. Wanna change your life, then get off your ass, bitch and fuckin' change it. ~ Tillie Cole

I t-tried to stay away, do the right thing. B-because I ain't no go for you. But f*uck, I want you so b-bad I feel like I- I c-can't breathe. Can't p-push you away n-no more. Need to have you c-close. ~ Tillie Cole

I am just so impossibly happy. Before you I was vacant of love. Now I am replete. Before you I lived without hope. Now I am inspired. Before you I was broken. Now I am whole."
"Lilah," I rasped, fighting a fucking lump in my throat at her words. I tapped over my heart with my fist and said, "You're in here, Li. You're fuckin' always in here. ~ Tillie Cole

I have never before been free to choose." He paused; then, with a deep flush to the apples of his cheeks, he added, "But I chose to share my very first kiss with you. ~ Tillie Cole

Joseph didn't know how, but he would find a way to protect them all … Boys with the names of angels but the thirst of demons in their blood.
He would protect them all.
Somehow. He at least had to try. ~ Tillie Cole

I was never meant to fall for him, but the forbidden love I found with The Hades Hangmen VP turned out to be the key to my salvation. ~ Tillie Cole

I'm gonna make you feel beautiful, baby. And you'll never be made to feel less than anyone else, ever again. ~ Tillie Cole