C J Roberts Quotes

Sometimes a gentle lie was enough to remove the weight of a harsh truth ~ C.J. Roberts

He was my tormentor and my solace; the creator of the dark and the light within. ~ C.J. Roberts

There is a moment, in all my studying of movies and scripts, that I'd realized something elemental about human beings and why I'd been attracted to that imaginary world. Each piece of work was attempting to describe the human condition, in all its good, bad and ugly glory. At first, it'd been an extension of my own life, strangely mirrored in this world of 'fiction'. Each story wanted, no - needed - to reveal a human fragility, a human bondage which tied people to the things they did and to be the person they held in their heads. Those stories were something true and sometimes horrific but people were people and the parts didn't just tell the whole story. ~ C.J. Roberts

I love you, Caleb. I love you! If you care for me at all ... please, don't do this! Please, don't leave me. I don't know how to live without you. Don't make me go back to trying to be someone I don't know how to be anymore. - Livvie ~ C.J. Roberts

I wrapped my arms around him and held on as hard as I could. He was my tormentor and my solace: the creator of the dark and the light within. I didn't care that he would undoubtedly hurt me at any moment, right now; I just needed somebody to hold me ... To tell me these exact words. Its going to be okay. It wasn't of course, I knew that. But I didn't care, I needed the lie. ~ C.J. Roberts

Like it or not, fight it or don't, your old life is over. ~ C.J. Roberts

Tell me you love me, Caleb," I whispered.
He kissed me, refusing. "I wish I could, Kitten ~ C.J. Roberts

Tell me to stop and I will. Tell me you don't want me to pull your tights down and fuck you up against this wall. Remind me of what a terrible person I am. Tell me I'm a sick bastard and you want me out of your life forever. ~ C.J. Roberts

What does a former kidnapper/murderer do in retirement? - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

Claudia yelled at an obnoxious level. I must have made a face because she responded to me. "Get used to it, gorgeous man. If you're going to be part of our group, you're going to have to handle our rude-ass behavior. There's no room for politeness in a family." She winked at me. I smiled. ~ C.J. Roberts

Some men don't eat pussy. I think those men are pussies. ~ C.J. Roberts

Thank goodness for whatever hormones make women so agreeable after you've laid them right, because that's all it took to get her to agree. Also ... pancakes. ~ C.J. Roberts

I can't have everything I feel reduced to a textbook description that fits me, and millions of other broken idiots. ~ C.J. Roberts

You'll always be Kitten to me...Livvie. ~ C.J. Roberts

I know you deserve to be happy. I know you deserve someone ... better, but I'm selfish. I want you. I want you bad enough to try and be someone better. ~ C.J. Roberts

Explain it to me, then. You're about to die. Unburden your soul, ~ C.J. Roberts

You're going to pay for that Pet,' he panted. The right side of his face sported an angry red hand print.

I shook out my hand, 'I already have. That was my change. ~ C.J. Roberts

There isn't a permanent mark on me, Reed, not one. And you don't know how many times he was there to hold me together when I was sure I was going to fall apart. He's a monster," she sobbed, "I know he is. I know, and ... it doesn't matter to me anymore. ~ C.J. Roberts

It's an ember forever burning in my heart. It's a reminder Caleb will live forever. ~ C.J. Roberts

I've seen you handle your stick, Caleb. You're much better at it than I am ~ C.J. Roberts

If I survive this, I can't go back. I'll have to move forward and I don't know what that means. ~ C.J. Roberts

I smiled despite myself.

"We're pretty far from perfect, Kitten.'m the most fucked up person you know."

"Yeah but I'm the most fucked up person I know, and when you put two negatives together, you get a positive. That's Math Caleb. Math is the language of universe. You can't argue with the universe." Her grin was patently ridiculous. ~ C.J. Roberts

Wait until you get inside. It's my favorite part.' And yes, gentle readers, I am that fucking smooth. ~ C.J. Roberts

It was tempting to fall back on reliable tactics and pretend things were ... perfect. To pretend he was only a boy and I was only a girl and we desired each other. I wanted him to hold and kiss me and pretend he would do anything to protect me. I wanted to pretend he felt a fraction of the things I couldn't seem to stop myself from feeling for him. My heart hurt. As much as my shoulder and ribs screamed with pain, they were eclipsed by the sorrow in my heart. I couldn't pretend anymore. The time for it had passed; there was only the reality of things left to deal with. ~ C.J. Roberts

With each act,he traveled toward the center of that world,until one day,when he looked back,he found he could no longer see the way he'd come. ~ C.J. Roberts

I'm envious of the pigeon. It doesn't have a care in the world beyond eating, sleeping, and defecating on park statues. That's the life. ~ C.J. Roberts

What are you bracing for?" he asked. "I already told you I'm not going to hurt you."
Inexplicably, sobs caught in my chest, but I managed to respond, "You've already hurt me, Caleb. Why would you do that? Why? ~ C.J. Roberts

If I were a wolf, I would howl. If I were a lion, I would oar. If we lived in the jungle, I would bring her a lion and a wolf to feast on. - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

These lips officially belong to me, and mine they will remain. If I find them anywhere near another man, he better be kin to you." I was entirely serious.

"You manage to say the most romantic things in the creepiest way possible. ~ C.J. Roberts

You're worse than those bikers," she spat, her body tense and coiling, ready to attack. "At least they knew they were monsters. You're pathetic! You're a monster who imagines he's something else. ~ C.J. Roberts

For the love of Christ, shut-up! Let a bitch enjoy you mental breakdown in peace. ~ C.J. Roberts

Once upon a time, Caleb held me captive in the dark, now he used it to seduce me. ~ C.J. Roberts

I wanted to say something, protest in some way, but then i felt the heat of him against the wetness i'd created, and i could've sworn i heard us sizzle. ~ Livvie ~ C.J. Roberts

For Caleb's kittens ~ C.J. Roberts

My mind id more problem/solution orientated. Mad at me? Scream at me. Punch me if you're up for it. Please don't smile at me sweetly, act like nothing is wrong and then leave me disillusioned. - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

She loves me. It's quite sick, isn't it? - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

Yeah, but I'm the second most fucked up person I know, and when you put two negatives together, you get a positive. That's math, Caleb. Math is the language of the universe. You can't argue with the universe. ~ C.J. Roberts

I'm telling you, monsters aren't born, they're made. ~ C.J. Roberts

Love does not always begin or end the way we wish it would. ~ C.J. Roberts

Promise me you won't leave." Livvie's arms gripped me tight.
"I promise. Can you say the same?" I almost dreaded the answer.
"I promise. I'm yours," she said.
"And I'm yours. ~ C.J. Roberts

My anger with him had grown as the hours had passed. I'd convinced myself when he came to get me i would really give him a piece of my mind. Of course - it's easy to be brave when the object of your fear isn't holding your sore nipples hostage. ~ Livvie ~ C.J. Roberts

This is not a romance. Romances are filled with valiant men and simpering damsels in distress. Romances have heroes worthy of the title. They slay dragons and climb towers to rescue beautiful princesses they immediately marry and impregnate. Romances end with a happily ever after. This is not a romance. This is a love story. ~ C.J. Roberts

you're entire life is going to change. you should try to accept that, because there's no possible way to avoid it. like it or not, fight it or don't, your old life is over. it was over long before you woke up here."
~caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

I smiled and moved back. I had her where I wanted her, but more than that--I had her where I needed her. In a place where she could admit she could forgive me for the past. In a place where we were possible. ~ C.J. Roberts

Love. What the hell did that word even mean? It got tossed around so flippantly, by everyone. What did it really mean? After all this time and everything that had happened, was he even capable? ~ C.J. Roberts

He was the monster that no one thought to look for in the light of day. It was a common mistake. People often believed they were safer in the light, thinking monsters only came out at night. But safety - like light - is a facade. Underneath, the whole world is drenched in darkness. ~ C.J. Roberts

I was prompted for a password. Why did she need a password? Didn't she trust me? I hope you're smiling, because I know I am. - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

I can't imagine what you must think of me ... And I don't expect you've forgiven me. Still, selfishly I have to ask you - are you glad I made you get out of the car? Was I right right?
Was everything you felt for me on account of my manipulation? If so, please know I am deeply sorry. that I will NEVER bother you again - I swear you'll never have cause to fear me. But if I was wrong. If you still care for me - meet me? Paceo de colon, San Sebastia tower eight o' clock tonight
-c ~ C.J. Roberts

I had a weapon of my own and I wasn't afraid to fucking use it. And if I died? Who the fuck cared? I put the gun to my head and demanded to be let through. The fucktards shot me. ~ C.J. Roberts

Softly, he inhales and exhales as we kiss. He never stops kissing me; he simply continues to steal my breath, returning it to me only when he's infused it with his essence. Pure lust lives inside him. Every breath I take should come from his lungs. ~ C.J. Roberts

I cried for a while, taking solace in the comforting lie of his embrace. The illusion, the fantasy, it helped. I never wanted to leave. I wanted to stay here forever, held tight to his chest, his fingers stroking my hair, his heart beating against my ear: you're-safe, trust-me, love-you. Love. Did I want him to love me? Yes. I wanted someone to love me. And what was love if not someone risking their lives to save you? Caleb had saved me. Did it mean he loved me? A part of me wanted to think so. To believe in a romantic ideal that didn't exist. I wanted to believe the lie. But more than that – I wanted it not to be a lie ~ C.J. Roberts

No one is ever going to understand. If it ever comes out, everyone's just going to think I'm crazy. That I'm young and I don't know what I'm talking about. That I'm a victim and my feelings are all a result of my trauma. I think that's what hurts the most. I lived through all of it. I saw and felt and experienced more in one Summer than I think most people experience their entire lives, but in the end? I'm just a girl who no one will ever understand. There's so much about me that will never be the same. ~ C.J. Roberts

Dealing with Caleb was all about perspective. You couldn't appreciate his kindness until you'd felt his cruelty. ~ C.J. Roberts

You don't have to call me Livvie if you don't want to, Caleb. To be honest, it's kinda scaring me. You're scaring me ~ C.J. Roberts

That you could fix me? What's more, that I could fix you? Well, Sorry, pet, I don't want to be fixed. - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

Everybody is fucked up, and we're all freaks in our own ways. ~ C.J. Roberts

Her words, her presence, and her pain, affected him. He hated it. His memories, the ones he worked so hard to push deep into forgotten recesses of his mind, banged on the door of his consciousness. They connected with Livvie, they connected to her suffering, and together, they threatened to undo him. ~ C.J. Roberts

You're the best boyfriend ever. You let me ride in elevators and everything."
"Laugh it up, Pet. It'll be hilarious when we get stuck and the smell of unclean tourist is invading your nostrils."
"Don't worry, Sexy. I'll protect you. ~ C.J. Roberts

The thought of one day not thinking of him at all is just too much for me. It feels like a betrayal to ever hope for such things. ~Livvie ~ C.J. Roberts

I don't know. I have no idea who I'm supposed to be anymore. I only know I don't want to be who someone else thinks I should be. ~ C.J. Roberts

...monsters aren't born, they're made... ~ C.J. Roberts

It seemed to Caleb, the nature of human being revolved around one empirical truth: we want what we cannot have. For Eve, it was the fruit of the forbidden tree. For Caleb, it was Livvie. ~ C.J. Roberts

If you've ever stood in the presence of a Lamborghini Gallardo Superleggera and not gotten a tingly sensation in your naughty bits, you have to be very young, very old, or completely fucking blind. ~ C.J. Roberts

Needless to say, I thought it was a bat-shit crazy idea (that's the technical term). The last thing I wanted was to reprise my role as Livvie's captor. - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

I'm fucking good looking and sharp witted! I bet Reed only speaks one language. I'm sharp witted in five! - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

If you were a plant, you would be a thistle ~ Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

I miss the restraints. In a way, they allowed me the freedom to writhe and flail. They gave me something and someone to fight against. Without them ... I feel like a traitor. No longer a prisoner, I seem to be allowing them to keep me here. ~ C.J. Roberts

Because she's going to help you understand something. I'm not yours to taunt. Don't think I haven't noticed the way you try to manipulate me. I invented that game. ~ C.J. Roberts

I was insanely jealous."
"I know. It should make me happy, but it doesn't."
"Why ?"
"I'd rather make you happy, Caleb. I'd rather see you smile. ~ C.J. Roberts

I was never your slave, Caleb. You tried, I'll give you that, but we both know you belong to me as much as I belong to you. If you'd really been able to break me down and build me back up, neither of us would be here. No matter how fucked up the circumstances, I genuinely fell in love with you ... and ... and believe it or not ... you love me too. ~ C.J. Roberts

When the initial pain of shock wore off, I thought it strange I should feel the pain of his slap in my chest, but I did, and it hurt more than I ever thought possible. ~ C.J. Roberts

James never met anyone named Livvie. He never hurt her. ~ C.J. Roberts

Then you can have me all to yourself! You can keep me in your dark little room
and fuck me stupid. You can own me. it's what you want isn't it? ~ C.J. Roberts

I'll show you a fag, you little bitch. I'll fuck-start your head! ~ C.J. Roberts

I was ready to go with you. After everything you'd done. And you just ... left me. You have no idea what I had to go through. How hard I had to work to become ... human. ~ C.J. Roberts

And when I heard her turn away, love made me beg. ~ C.J. Roberts

Make him love you," Ruthless Me whispered. "Make it so he can't live without you. The devil you know." I felt her growing inside me, bringing with her the insane idea that I actually wielded power with Caleb. ~ C.J. Roberts

I wanted to cry for wanting to cry. ~ C.J. Roberts

I don't want to stop. I don't want to think. I want to stay here and pretend nothing's waiting for us when we get out. ~ C.J. Roberts

I plan to spend the better part of the day super glued to your body." She ran one of her mitten-clad hands down the front of my coat. I laughed.

"Well then, I'm looking forward to it already. I'll be sure to giftwrap. ~ C.J. Roberts

Live for me, Kitten. Be all those things you'd never be with me. Go to school. Meet a normal boy and fall in love. Forgive me. It's time for you to go, Kitten. Time for us both, to go. ~ C.J. Roberts

We're pretty far from perfect, Kitten. I'm the most fucked up person you know." "Yeah, but I'm the second most fucked up person I know, and when you put two negatives together, you get a positive. That's math, Caleb. Math is the language of the universe. You can't argue with the universe." Her grin was patently ridiculous. I love you so goddamn much. ~ C.J. Roberts

Everything is in the process of becoming something else. It's the law of change. ~ C.J. Roberts

Mine.
The word was a declaration. It rocked him to his very foundation. It was a truth he'd kept hidden for far too long. Caleb didn't know anything about love, or loving anyone, but he knew ... Livvie was his. ~ C.J. Roberts

Will you cry? Will you miss me? ~ C.J. Roberts

Enjoy the smell and taste of her. Some med don't easy pussy. I think those men are pussies- Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

You kidnapped me! You've humiliated me, beat me, nearly gotten me rapped, and just a moment ago you had me suck a complete stranger's dick in a room full of twisted perverts. I love you, but I'm not the coward, Caled. I deserve to live or die on my own fucking terms. ~ C.J. Roberts

I've been doing this a long time- manipulating people to get my way. That's why you think you love me. Because I've broken you down and built you back up to believe it. It wasn't an accident. Once you leave this behind ... you'll see that. -Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

His touch was simple, but specific, meant to show me he could be like a lover, gentle, intimate, but also that he was a man unaccustomed to hearing the word no. Yes. I understood. He was a man, and I? I was nothing but a girl, not even a woman. I was meant to fall at his feet and worship at the altar of his masculinity, grateful that he'd deigned to acknowledge me. All this, from a simple touch. ~ C.J. Roberts

Caleb looked at the girl sitting outside the café. Did he even know her anymore? Could she sense her life as she knew it hanging precariously in the balance? Could she feel his eyes on her? Did she have a sixth sense for monsters? The thought made him sad. ~ C.J. Roberts

Could she sense her life as she knew it hanging precariously in the balance? Could she feel his eyes on her? Did she have a sixth sense for monsters? The thought of it made him smile ~ C.J. Roberts

I put my hand over my erection and turned away. "No. That's not for you. I have to go to the bathroom." "Well get up! I have a whole day of birthday activities planned and you're spoiling my fun with your sleeping ... and your pee boner." I laughed. "I hate it when you call it that." "Yeah? Well I hate that I can't play with it. Why the hell is it so hard if I'm not supposed to play with it? That's false advertising, Mister. ~ C.J. Roberts

Easy, Caleb. Don't break her. Win her. ~ C.J. Roberts

If I had thought grovelling would get Livvie into my car, I would have made a good show of it. I'm shameless. - Caleb ~ C.J. Roberts

They say I tried to hurt my nurse. I tell them they tried to hurt me first. ~ C.J. Roberts

He is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. That includes puppies, babies, rainbows, sunsets, and sunrises. I can't even call him a man―men don't look this good. ~ C.J. Roberts

All of the tears i made her made her shed, these were his favorite. If happy tears taste the same as the sad ones, he said.
I think they're sweeter. ~ C.J. Roberts

Why couldn't he just keep being an evil, soulless bastard so I knew what his role was and I knew mine? ~ C.J. Roberts

I hate dry turkey. I may have over-basted it. Who am I kidding, though? No such thing. You'll eat my fucking turkey and lick your fingers when you're done. ~ C.J. Roberts

The only way to truly be safer, was to accept the dark, to walk in it with eyes wide open, to be a part of it. To keep your enemies close. ~ C.J. Roberts