Penelope Douglas Quotes

Alone, Empty, Fraud, Shame, Fear,
Close your eyes.There is nothing to see out here. ~ Penelope Douglas

Chess would teach me strategy, fencing would teach me human nature and self-preservation, and dancing would teach me my body. All necessary for a well-rounded person. ~ Penelope Douglas

The world isn't always what's right in front of you, you know? It's below, it's above, it's out there somewhere. Every burn of every light inside every house I see when I look down from the rooftop has a story. Sometimes we just need to change our perspective.
And when I look down at everything, I remember that there's more out there than just what's going on in my house - the bullshit with my dad, school, my future. I look at all those full houses, and I remember, I'm just one of many. It's not to say we're not special or important, but it's comforting, I guess. You don't feel so alone. ~ Penelope Douglas

She gave me a sad smile and did what good friends do - gave me a second slice of cake. ~ Penelope Douglas

When I thought about it, there actually weren't a lot of things or people in the world that I loved. Why had I left them here? ~ Penelope Douglas

Everyone contemplates suicide at some point, even if it's just for a minute. And one thing is usually the root cause. Loneliness. ~ Penelope Douglas

Life never follows your plan.
The truth was you could spend countless hours planning and preparing, and the only thing you could count on once you'd got your plan set was that it would be the one way things won't happen. ~ Penelope Douglas

Because he's the one pure, beautiful thing untainted by ugliness," he repeated his same words from the shower. "And we love him for it. ~ Penelope Douglas

Run all you want, Little Monster," he said, sounding like a threat. "We're faster. ~ Penelope Douglas

I'm sorry," he whispered. "I know I can make this up to you. Don't hate me. ~ Penelope Douglas

He gave us three irrefutible pieces of advice about the male species:
1. Boys will lie, cheat, and steal to get into your pants. A man will stand the test of time. Make him wait, and you'll see which one he is.
2. They will try to tell you that it feels better without a condom. You just tell me where they live.
3. And relationships are supposed to make your life better. You don't drag each other down. You hold each other up. ~ Penelope Douglas

The watermelon juice spilling over your lip?" he indicated. "Lick it up or I will. ~ Penelope Douglas

He made himself the cure, which wouldn't have been necessary if he hadn't also created the disease. ~ Penelope Douglas

You have to have something to love. Something to fight for to make living a goal instead of a job. ~ Penelope Douglas

Can we just skip to the end?" I asked softly. "I'm tired of missing you, ~ Penelope Douglas

I think too many people give others too much power over them. But if they're not missing you or thinking about you or wanting to be near you, then it's time to realize you're worth someone who does ~ Penelope Douglas

When you're cared for, you care for others. ~ Penelope Douglas

Don't change, Ryen wrote in a letter once. There's no one like you, and i can't love you if you stop being you. I guess I shouldn't say that, but I'm a little drunk right now-just came back from a party when I saw your letter-but what the hell? I don't care. You knew I love you, right? You're my best friend.
So don't ever change. This is a big ass world, and when we leave our small towns, we're going to find our tribe. If we don't stay true to ourselves, how will they recognize us? (Both of us, because you know we're on the same tribe, right?)
And even if it's just the two of us, it will be the best. ~ Penelope Douglas

Few simple rules: respect your elders, take care of your body, finish what you start, and solve your own problems. ~ Penelope Douglas

Because you're the one with shit to prove to your loser old man," Damon retorted. "We can smell our own. Now, both of you, hurry up. ~ Penelope Douglas

Tyler looked after him and then turned to me, cocking his head. I'm not a jealous man, but for you I might make an exception. ~ Penelope Douglas

But we were different now. I wanted only his pain, and judging from the girl he'd come home with last night, Madoc was still the same. A user. ~ Penelope Douglas

I'm your friend forever, and if that's all I get, then that's what I'm taking because only when you are here...do I feel like my life is worth a damn ~ Penelope Douglas

At ten years old, Jared was my friend. At fourteen, my enemy; at eighteen, my lover; and at twenty, my heartbreak. I'd known him more than half my life, and although the roles had changed, his impact was always all consuming.
Always. ~ Penelope Douglas

I didn't feel so lost when he was around. It was the only time I didn't feel lost. ~ Penelope Douglas

We might not make the best decisions under pressure, but you can't make a decision at all when you're not talking about it. ~ Penelope Douglas

But they don't fully appreciate the convenience of it in their lives," Professor Cain argued.
"Because it's not a convenience to them," I shot back, growing stronger. "It's their normal, because their frame of reference is different than yours was growing up. And we'll say it's a convenience when our children have things we didn't. But again, that won't be a convenience to them, either. It will be their normal."
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"And furthermore," I went on, "this discussion isn't useful, because it won't change anything. You're angry, because your generation has given mine advances in technology and then blame us for the altered reality? Where's the accountability? ~ Penelope Douglas

Letting yourself be vulnerable isn't always a weakness. Sometimes it can be a conscious decision to draw the other person out. ~ Penelope Douglas

I pulled Dylan up onto my lap, her little yellow Chucks rubbing against my shins. "Hi, Daddy," she chirped. "I miss you. ~ Penelope Douglas

In our hearts, we always know what's right and wrong. That's not the struggle. The struggle is wanting what's wrong for you and gauging whether or not the consequences are worth it. ~ Penelope Douglas

If she knew she was yours, she wouldn't have gotten in that car ~ Penelope Douglas

You have every right not to trust me, Tate. I know that. My fucking heart is ripping open right now. I can't stand the way you're looking at me. I could never hurt you again. Please ... let's try to fix this together. ~ Penelope Douglas

I call it the "Fuck up, own up, and get up" policy. Make a mistake, admit it, and move on. We all screw up, but a man solves his problems. He doesn't make them worse. ~ Penelope Douglas

People dictate rules based on how they want to be treated, but I'll tell you something. When someone else misbehaves, it's black and white, isn't it? We judge, and we condemn, but when we do it, it's a gray area all of a sudden. Other people are subject to your convictions, but not you, right? Not Michael? ~ Penelope Douglas

My mother said the first boy - or man - is a crush.
You think you love them, but what you really love is how they make you feel. It's not love. It's lust. Lust for attention. Lust for danger. Lust to feel special. (...) The second is to learn about yourself. Your first crush has been crushed. You're sad, but most of all, you're angry. Angry enough to not let it happen again. (...) Love. When the lessons of your weakness with number one and your selfishness with number two sink in, and you find a medium. When you know who you are and you're ready to welcome everything he is, and you're not afraid anymore. ~ Penelope Douglas, Credence.

Okay, lesson on Tate and music. If fans do anything less than carve the band's name into their skin, then the band isn't worth listening to. Any music that involves more than jumping around and banging your head is about as exciting as Kenny G to her. ~ Penelope Douglas

The world has plans for you, baby. Whether you're ready or not. You can be either a driver or a passenger. ~ Penelope Douglas

I've wanted you for so long," I whispered against her mouth. "All the times I'd see you next door ... it drove me crazy ~ Penelope Douglas

Madoc thought I was dirt under his shoe. Screw him. ~ Penelope Douglas

Man, I wanted to unravel you, K.C.," he whispered, and then looked me straight in the eye. "I wanted inside you so badly. ~ Penelope Douglas

To dive and fall.

To have a lifetime of searching for something.

Or to have five minutes of everything. ~ Penelope Douglas

The shy ones tend to be the baddest after all. ~ Penelope Douglas

The back of my neck breaks out in a sweat, and I'm getting nervous. Why is he just standing there, staring at me? "What do you want?" I press, my tone curt.

He opens his mouth but then closes it swallowing.

"Pike, Jesus - "
"The day you left," he blurts out, and I stop.

I wait, listening as a look of fear crosses his eyes.

"The house was so empty," he continues. "Like a quiet that was never there before. I couldn't hear your footsteps upstairs or your hairdryer or anticipate you walking into a room. You were gone. Everything was…" he drops his eyes, "gone."

A ball lodges in my throat, and I feel tears threaten, but I tense my jaw, refusing to let it out.

"But I could still feel you," he whispers. "You were still everywhere. The container of cookies in the fridge, the backsplash you picked out, the way you put all my pictures back in the wrong spot after you dusted my bookshelves." He smiles to himself. "But I couldn't rearrange them, because you were the last to touch them, and I wanted everything the way you had it."

My chin trembles, and I fold my arms over my chest, hiding my balled fists under my arms.

He pauses and then goes on. "Nothing would ever go back to the way it was before you came into my house. I didn't want it to." He shakes his head. "I went to work, and I came home, and I stayed there every night and all weekend, every weekend, because that's where we were together. ~ Penelope Douglas, Birthday Girl

He smiled to himself. "Because she made you." And he wrapped his skinny arm around my neck and yanked me into his side. "You're the best friend I've ever had, and I wanted to tell her 'thank you. ~ Penelope Douglas

Life moves pretty fast," she stated. "If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. ~ Penelope Douglas

We're all ugly, Ryen. The only difference is, some hide it and some wear it. ~ Penelope Douglas

I build with you now," he whispered to me, the heat of his mouth on my lips. "We make Thunder Bay together, Em. I love you." I love you. I closed my eyes, my face cracking and my eyes filling with tears. ~ Penelope Douglas

Madoc cleared his throat. "Dr. Porter. Nate and Piper bumped into each other."
Oh, my god. I was convinced. Madoc was an idiot. ~ Penelope Douglas

A man who stands in front of a woman does nothing more than block her view. ~ Penelope Douglas

It was such a shame. Jared was stunningly gorgeous, and once upon a time, he was a good guy. If things had been different, I could be his. Once upon a time, I thought I was his. But I wouldn't be sacrificing my pride to him. Ever. Again. ~ Penelope Douglas

Tell me I'm crazy for thinking you're holding back from me as much as I'm hiding you. ~ Penelope Douglas

Only. Ever. You. Jaxon Trent. ~ Penelope Douglas

If you beat metal long enough, it turns to steel. ~ Penelope Douglas

Words were shit. They didn't mean anything. What we did mattered, not what we said. ~ Penelope Douglas

So many times of needing to be close to her, talk to her, see her smile at me, and now I had her in my arms, I never wanted to let her go. ~ Penelope Douglas

1. Boys will lie, cheat, and steal to get into your pants. A man will stand the test of time. Make him wait, and you'll see which one he is. 2. They will try to tell you that it feels better without a condom. You just tell me where they live. 3. And relationships are supposed to make your life better. You don't drag each other down. You hold each other ~ Penelope Douglas

Gotta love a woman that can hand you your own ass. ~ Penelope Douglas

My hands were on you, too," she says.
And then she pulls the door open and walks out, closing it gently behind her.
I stare after her, the empty space making me suddenly want her back.
"Don't say things like that," I mumble to an empty house.
If I know you want it, too, how will I be able to resist you? ~ Penelope Douglas

I stared at his back as he left, my stomach churning at his commands and confidence, and I shot out my foot, kicking the leg of my chair. He had spanked me. He'd spanked me! I looked over at the windows, the angry sky dark with the promise of rain and the trees' leaves dancing wildly. Smooth sailing, my ass. ~ Penelope Douglas

Did you know that your open thighs are directly responsible for my renewable energy source? ~ Penelope Douglas

Just shut up."
But he doesn't. "I'm not saying you should do anything. And that's why I stepped in and didn't let you bring her home."
His tone turns serious.
"All kidding aside, Pike," he goes on, "she is exactly your type. You shouldn't be alone with her."
Yeah.
I know.
I just hope he's the only person who's noticed.
"Thanks for the intervention," I tell him, "but even if I were attracted to her, I'm capable of controlling myself."
"You're not seeing yourself from my perspective." He looks out the front windshield, solemn. "You look at each other like…"
"Like?"
He swallows, an unusually troubled pinch to his brow. "Like the two of you have your own language. ~ Penelope Douglas

Fuck up, own up, and then get up. ~ Penelope Douglas

Because pain in the body quiets the pain in the head. It feels good, like a kill switch for your brain. ~ Penelope Douglas

It took everything I had not to look at him, because if I did, he'd know.
He would know that I didn't always hate him. ~ Penelope Douglas

If there was no gamble, there was no reward. ~ Penelope Douglas

Isn't it about time you fought back? ~ Penelope Douglas

When you think about the women who aren't interested in my brother, it pretty much just leaves the lesbians ~ Penelope Douglas

I exist as I am, that is enough" Song of Myself by Walt Whitman ~ Penelope Douglas

It's just you, Little Monster. Own it or it will own you. ~ Penelope Douglas

You've already made me cry countless times." I raised my middle finger to him slowly, and asked, "Do you know what this is?" I took my middle finger and patted the corner of my eye with it. "It's me, wiping away the last tear you'll ever get. ~ Penelope Douglas

The most valuable lesson anyone learns in life should be learned as early as possible. That you don't have to live in the reality someone else had invented. You don't have to do anything you don't want to do. Ever. ~ Penelope Douglas

I rolled my eyes so far back in my head I almost saw my brain. ~ Penelope Douglas

I'd always told myself that I deserve good things, that I was worthy, but if I ever believed it. You can't tell yourself anything. Your heart only believes what it feels, and experience is the best teacher. ~ Penelope Douglas

She needed a hot shower, a warm bed, and me. ~ Penelope Douglas

Those who are patient, plan. And beware the man with a plan. ~ Penelope Douglas

He was giving me the same look I got Wednesday night right before he kissed me, and I knew I hadn't imagined anything. It was anger and desire mixed together to make something hot enough for my knees to go weak. ~ Penelope Douglas

I didn't want to stop him, but . . . I bit my bottom lip, feeling his fingers slide up and down my pussy, dipping and bringing out the wetness, spreading it over my clit. And then whimpered, feeling two long fingers plunge inside of me. "Shit," I moaned, squirming against his fingers. "Please stop," I pleaded. "Tyler, please." But he just added another finger, staring down and watching the pleasure of what he was doing spread across my face. "Say it again," he ordered. I blinked, opening my eyes, even though his thumb rubbing circles on my clit was driving me wild. "Tyler," I said gently. "Please stop." His mouth curled into a smile, and he stole a kiss, nipping at my bottom lip. "You ~ Penelope Douglas

You just think I'm cool, because I have all of the seasons of Vampire Diaries on DVD. ~ Penelope Douglas

None of us are unique in our suffering. But we are unique in our survival. ~ Penelope Douglas

But I found out that they were part of a façade that he adopted. When the clothes came off, so did Madoc's mask. At night when he'd hang out in just jeans and nothing else, it was like I was seeing an entirely different guy. Strong. Powerful. Mine. ~ Penelope Douglas

There were two kinds of stupid. Stupid people that got drunk and humped trees, and stupid people that just humped trees. ~ Penelope Douglas

The perk about being the quiet girl was not many people really got to know you, which left you the advantage of surprise if you ever decided to switch gears in situations just like this. ~ Penelope Douglas

Sometimes I wore smiles but didn't feel them. Sometimes I felt them and didn't wear them. I didn't want her to know how much I craved this. I bit my bottom lip. ~ Penelope Douglas

They were untouchable, fascinating, and nothing they ever did was wrong. I wanted that. I wanted to look down at the sky. ~ Penelope Douglas

Most guys, Madoc, like something different. You know why you want to see me in "nice," skimpy things? Because the more I show, the less I'm hiding. I scare you. ~ Penelope Douglas

Today. Also, use the word motherfucker at some point. You'll feel a lot better. Trust me. ~ Penelope Douglas

You can do a couple things and succeed, or you can try to do fifteen things and fail at all of them. ~ Penelope Douglas

I see you, like pictures in a frame,

But I can't touch, and I can't be the same. ~ Penelope Douglas

A single composition can have so many meanings depending on the person playing. ~ Penelope Douglas

And from Michael - as well as Damon, Will, and Kai - I learned to breathe fire. I learned to walk as if the path were carved for me and me alone, and to treat the world as if it should know I was coming. ~ Penelope Douglas

When you stepped on Jared's toes, you'd get punched in the gut. If you stepped on Jax's toes, he'd hack into the county database and issue a warrant for your arrest. ~ Penelope Douglas

I'm going to hell. I'm pretty sure she'd going to drag me there herself. ~ Penelope Douglas

Sometimes, we all need to hide. ~ Penelope Douglas

I wanted to make more than just money. I wanted to make a difference and be remembered. ~ Penelope Douglas

So I had this date last night," Dane goes on, ignoring my order. "Do you remember that girl from Sigma Kappa Whatever? She was at the gig last night, and everything was going great, both of us eye-fucking for like four frickin' hours…" He pauses and turns to me, his voice turning urgent. "She takes me home, dude, and I'm sitting in the living room while she's in the bathroom, and I'm so ready, because she's so hot, right? And who walks in?"

"Dane." I close my eyes, willing him to shut the fuck up.

"Her mom, dude!" he bursts out. "Her mom in her light pink nightie with legs for days. And let me tell you, man…Stacy's mom has got it going on?"

I can't help myself. I break out in a laugh at the song reference and pinch the bridge of my nose, tired but a fraction more relaxed, even if I'd never admit it to him.

Such an idiot. ~ Penelope Douglas

The only way we find out what we're capable of is by getting into a little trouble. ~ Penelope Douglas

We can be confused about what is good for us but not about what we truly want. ~ Penelope Douglas

Guys didn't like their cars messed with. And I didn't like being messed with, so I guessed we were even. ~ Penelope Douglas

Bite me, hit me, scream at me. I don't care. I want to feel it. Fucking hurt me, K.C. Let me see you. ~ Penelope Douglas

Abuse can feel like love."
"Abuse can feel like love…Why?"
Damon remained so still it didn't look like he was breathing. He looked at the teacher, unwavering. "Starving people will eat anything. ~ Penelope Douglas