Okparaebo Ezinne Quotes

Do not leave your life to chance.
Live your life on purpose. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

You speak to me in locked cages.
In open sentences with closed meanings.
In riddles I can never seem to understand.

Around you Nkem, I feel lost.
Un-at-home. Dismembered.

In many small bits.
And in tiny minuscule pieces. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

Perhaps not knowing is a good thing. When all is uncertain, everything becomes possible. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

But home is 6617 miles away; a burning building. A sinking ship. A dying thing. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

Has someone ever loved you unconditionally?"

"Seen the fire and not run?"
"Burnt their hands but won't stop touching?"
"That is the kind of love that changes people."
"That is the kind of love that makes them softer. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

Only in silence do the foolish become wise. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

Two missed calls and you think your father is dead again. The conversation is rushed. Nuances of your new life are pushed into a speaker. They meet alien ears. At home; you are an old stranger. Away; you are a new one.
All you have of your family is in a phone. And it is why you can never lose it. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

And so you travel.
Forgetting that the problem is you.
And where ever you go, you carry yourself. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

When you are walking on purpose the process becomes the pleasure and the path its own way. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

The man that abused you was hardly kind but he was familiar.
Dark or dim, you could find him in a crowded room.

And he walks freely.
Has friends, a job, even a new lover.

But there is this cage in his mind.
A trap that follows him around.
He is his own enemy. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

Always do what you fear.
Courage is doing it through the fear. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.

There is nothing about abuse that makes it easy to talk about. Not how it is often someone you know, trust and love that inflicts the harm. Not how it spins your head a thousand times over, breaks your spine in two; traps you in a bed for days. There is nothing easy about crying in the shower after it is finished. Ruminating on the details. Watching tears dive into swimming pools at your feet. The night sweats. The intrusive thoughts. The feelings of being less than human. The guilt, the shame, the anger and the fear. I tell you, there is absolutely nothing soft about breaking. There are times when you betray yourself by thinking most about the person that cares for you the least. Times when you put your heart back together knowing it will still break again by morning. Times when you wonder if the darkness gets a kick out of staying too long. And you know it will cost a lot of therapy returning yourself to you, so instead you settle. You settle for anything that will alleviate the memories. The sweets. The overeating. The drugs. The alcohol. The fast sex. You know; those small violence's you do to your body in order to make sense of why. ~ Ezinne Orjiako, Nkem.