Courtney Cole Quotes

I love you.
How much?
More than the ocean is large.
More than a shark loves human limbs.
More than Gavin loves his reflection.
More than baseball players love steroids.
More than chocolate, more than wine and way, way more than anchovies.
More than yesterday, but less than tomorrow.
...
How much? I type.
This much. It's his voice. ~ Courtney Cole

Nocte liber sum. By night I am free. ~ Courtney Cole

I had forgotten about the sword in all of the excitement of almost burning alive. ~ Courtney Cole

I think about how the moonlight is really a reflection of the sun, of how the moon doesn't create any light at all. So a thing that seems to radiate silvery, ethereal light is really the darkest of the dark.
I'm the moon.
And I have no light of my own.
I need Dare for that.
But if he's the sun, he'll burn me.
And my metaphors are making me sick. ~ Courtney Cole

I'm counting on that," Mila murmurs as she steps away. "I just need some time Pax; time for you to show that you are serious about this, about putting the work in. That's all I need. ~ Courtney Cole

I'm sorry," I say and the words start spilling out. "I'm sorry. I should have just talked to you and then you wouldn't have felt guilty and then you wouldn't have gotten into this accident. It's my fault. I'm so sorry."
I'm still holding his hand and he's looking at me with his beautiful blue eyes.
"You're sorry?" he asks in confusion. "You're sorry? For what? It's not your fault. None of this is your fault."
"I was being a baby," I tell him. "I didn't know what to say to you and I was trying to be strong but I was so upset that you were kissing Elena."
"Elena kissed me," he answers. "I just want to clarify that. And she kissed me because I had just told her that I can't see her anymore. Because I want to be with someone else."
"Someone else?" My voice is small in the large hospital suite and all of a sudden my heart is numb again. This time, it is numb because it is waiting hopefully for words that I am desperately wanting to hear.
"Yes," he nods. "Someone else."
My heart is still waiting.
There is a pause.
Then another pause.
He doesn't say anything so I do.
"Is it anyone I know?"
I look down and he looks up and our eyes lock.
"I should hope so since it is you," he says.
My heart stops.
And then starts again.
And then I bend down and kiss Dante Gili-bear-ti as softly and gently as I can.
"You want to be with me?" I ask this as I pull away and look at him. He smells like iodine an ~ Courtney Cole

Don't love me," he says simply. "Or I'll break you. I won't want to, but it will happen. ~ Courtney Cole

There are times we pay for sins that are not our own, ~ Courtney Cole

Maybe because your mom just died in a car crash? ~ Courtney Cole

Pull on your goddess panties, my dear. It's time to come out swinging. ~ Courtney Cole

Jacey," I continue, trying to make my voice steady, "I don't know what I can offer you. But I'll try to offer you something more than… this. I know you deserve more. Trust me, I know that. You're different from everyone I know. You're a breath of fresh air, and I just want to keep breathing you in. That's a big thing for me, you have no idea. ~ Courtney Cole

Oh, Red. If you want to turn up the heat, you've got to be careful not to get burned by the fire. ~ Courtney Cole

Because traditions are soothing when everything else goes to hell. ~ Courtney Cole

I love you, too, Pax. I hope you know that. ~ Courtney Cole

I'm not a good guy, Jacey. I'm not the person that you'd like to believe. Please know that. Don't make the mistake of romanticizing me. ~ Courtney Cole

Because I'm a monster, like my father before me and his father before him, and so on. There is no help for me. ~ Courtney Cole

Want to know something?" he whispers into my ear. "You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. And I love you. ~ Courtney Cole

He looked at me for a moment, studying my face. What I had requested was very brazen for these times, something a lady would never do. But I wasn't a lady. I was a goddess and I would do whatever the hell I felt like doing. ~ Courtney Cole

A monster lives in us all. ~ Courtney Cole

I couldn't remember if I thanked you for what you did," I tell her. "And I can't get you out of my head. ~ Courtney Cole

The good news is that fear is a choice. You can stand in front of it, punch it in the face and get on with life. - Gabe ~ Courtney Cole

I love you so much," she whispers. "I love you so much. But I can't. Not right now. ~ Courtney Cole

I stand on a wall to protect what is mine. I'm his and he's mine. It's the way it's meant to be. We'll protect each other forever, for the rest of our lives. No matter what. ~ Courtney Cole

Sometimes, at the least opportune times, the past is an insomniac, alive and well. ~ Courtney Cole

It was nice to meet you, Mila. Thank you for saving my life. ~ Courtney Cole

I crumple onto the lounger and cry again even though I didn't think I had any tears left. And then Dante is next to me, with his wet arms around me and he's whispering in my ear.
And the huskiness of his voice.
The smell of his wet skin.
The beating of his heart against my hand.
All of it.
I don't want to be without him.
Maybe he's right. Maybe love is all that matters. And we can get through our differences. We can get through anything.
And then he's kissing me.
And I'm letting him.
And I'm kissing him back.
Because I love him and he loves me and Elena Kontou doesn't matter.
Dante's hands are all over me, warm and strong and I lean into him, into his warmth, his strength. It's still raining, but we are kissing in the rain and it's sexy as hell. In fact, I think I'll kiss in the rain forever. For the rest of my life. Because it's just that sexy. ~ Courtney Cole

I enjoy the vibration of the sound against my lips, the heat of her breath against mine. Everything is visceral now, an explosion of sensations and my vision blurs.
She is soft and I am hard and I rage against her, taking her over and over until her eyes glaze and her screaming stops.
Her heart is pounding against my chest and her body is so very fragile.
So I break it. ~ Courtney Cole

If it were me, I'd be flying off the handle and freaking out. But he's not. He's as calm as can be. We're like yin and yang. Perfect opposites. ~ Courtney Cole

She walked in beauty, She sleeps in peace. ~ Courtney Cole

A simple thank you for saving my life would suffice. I don't need for you to carry me off to your bed to show your gratitude. ~ Courtney Cole

We were soul mates. Bound through time with a love stronger than steel. He was mine. And I was his. Unquestionably. Forever. Yet here we were. He was half-dressed and embracing my sworn enemy. ~ Courtney Cole

And women don't usually like to be looked at. They feel vulnerable, exposed. They are self-conscious about their perceived flaws. What they don't understand is that men don't see them the same way they see themselves. We see curves and we love those curves. Confidence is sexy as hell, Alli Cat. It's the sexiest possible think that you can wear. ~ Courtney Cole

We absorb the energy that's around us, you know. ~ Courtney Cole

You can do anything to me at all, actually. Nude or otherwise. ~ Courtney Cole

I do not give a rat's front teeth about decorum right now," my father enunciated clearly and loudly. "I have a hole in my side! Have you not noticed? ~ Courtney Cole

Someone should have mentioned to him that Karma was a venomous witch. ~ Courtney Cole

That day, that one day, changed me forever. It taught me that everything you love, everyone you love, even if you love them and hate them at the same time, can be taken away in a moment and there isn't anything you can do to change it. ~ Courtney Cole

I don't want to start over again," she says slowly. "I like what we had. I don't want to re-do it. I love you, Pax. But I don't know if I can handle it if you leave me like that again. You shut me out and i couldn't help you. That's not what people do when they love someone. You ripped my heart out and stomped on it. ~ Courtney Cole

I love you, too," I tell him quickly. "I have for weeks. ~ Courtney Cole

Things are the way they are, but everything has a reason. Kittens are cute because they're tiny fur-balls with smushed faces. Rainbows are pretty because they have every color in the world in them and they're made from refracted light. Chick flicks are sad because chicks sometimes just need a good cry. And assholes are always assholes for a reason. ~ Courtney Cole

You're much too pretty to be bloody. ~ Courtney Cole

It's okay," I assure her. "I like stalkers. ~ Courtney Cole

fake it 'til you make it. If you don't feel good, pretend you do because eventually you will. It hasn't worked yet, but I'm still holding out hope. ~ Courtney Cole

Son, you were your mother's peace. You brought her so much peace and joy from the very first time she held you, that she knew she had to name you Pax. Your mother loved you more than anything in the world. She would have gladly given her life a hundred times over to keep you safe. Whatever you do, just live a good life for her. She had so many hopes for you. But when it boils down to it, all she would want is for you to be happy. ~ Courtney Cole

She said...Branden, the best things in life are worth the greatest risk. Sometimes, before we fall, we fly. ~ Courtney Cole

I can't let you break my heart. I don't have much of it left. ~ Courtney Cole

What is it about that one motion, that one tiny thing, that always sticks in my head? It's so stupid. Such a silly thing to focus on. ~ Courtney Cole

I don't think I'm ever going to let you off my lap," I tell her. "So I hope you're comfortable. ~ Courtney Cole

It was never an option. Love never fails, Mila. And I'll never fail you again. That's a promise. ~ Courtney Cole

I lose myself in a world that isn't mine and for a while, that's for the best. ~ Courtney Cole

Cool hands grasped my shoulders and tried to pull me away from Camdus, but I wouldn't have it. I was going nowhere. I clutched his shoulders, breathing him in. I was determined to stay with my husband no matter what. They would have to pry me away. And then someone did. ~ Courtney Cole

Life is just a mixture of good and bad, of varying shades of grays and whites and blacks. ~ Courtney Cole

The die has been cast. ~ Courtney Cole

The universe takes care of iniquities, of people who have been wronged, of injustices that the world can't right. ~ Courtney Cole

By night, I am free.
No one hears my monsters but me.
My freedom is fragile, though,
Because every morning,
Over and over,
The night is broken by the sun.
It's a good way to die. ~ Courtney Cole

I even dispose of my sleeping pills. Anything that can be a crutch to me, I pitch. Except for the three bottles of whiskey that I have in the kitchen. I'm trying to turn over a new leaf- I haven't gone fucking insane. ~ Courtney Cole

You don't have to beat around the bush about it, Mila. If you want to be there at sunrise, just pack an overnight bag when you come out. ~ Courtney Cole

I've barely woken up and I'm faced with this spawn of Satan sitting on my bed. ~ Courtney Cole

He deserves to be a focus. ~ Courtney Cole

Terror is so delicious," she remarked. "You're disappointingly predictable, Harmonia. All these years and you would still risk everything for him. Tsk, tsk. ~ Courtney Cole

There is nothing quite so terrifying as the descension of the human mind into insanity. ~ Courtney Cole

Words can harm people every bit as much as a weapon. ~ Courtney Cole

Because tonight is perfect.
The sun is really setting now and it's beautiful. The oranges and reds and golds are shining over the horizon and onto our skin and everything is romantic and dreamy.
It's like a dream, actually.
I lean up and kiss Dante's cheek and he smells like the ocean and the salt and the sun. And maybe the woodsy scent of the olive groves. I sigh. There's no way that life gets any better than this. I settle back into his side for the drive and he wraps his arm around me. ~ Courtney Cole

Answers that are not freely given aren't really answers at all. ~ Courtney Cole

I'm tired of hearing about how complicated your life is. Life is not that complicated. Either you like someone or you don't. Either you are true to them and your heart or you aren't. Pretty simple, actually. ~ Courtney Cole

Warmth rushes through me because Kismet always prevails.
The jury has decided. I feel it in my bones. ~ Courtney Cole

Dear Reader, Dante Alighieri said, in his Inferno: "Do not be afraid; our fate cannot be taken from us; it is a gift." Dante lied. Our fate must be worked for. It must be paid for. With tears. With blood. With everything we have. And it is not until the end, the very end, that we will know if it was worth it. ~ Courtney Cole

The bad thing caught you.
I've never retreated in my life. I've never backed away from a fight and I've never cowered in fear. Ever. That's not who I am. But I've been in combat long enough to know that when something unbeatable chases you, you do the only thing you can do.
You run. - Gabe ~ Courtney Cole

Fiction is best served alone. ~ Courtney Cole

As we walk, I know without looking where Dare is. It's like I'm a planet and he's my axis ... or my sun. I feel his heat, I feel his presence, and I ache to lean into it, to fold into him, to absorb his strength. ~ Courtney Cole

I would plunge to the bottom of the ocean for you. I'd comb it for shells and make you a necklace and then hang myself with it. Because if you aren't here, I don't want to be either. ~ Courtney Cole

The thought of his mind wandering while long sharp objects were trying to knock him off his horse alarmed me. ~ Courtney Cole

My name is Calla Price. I'm eighteen years old, and I'm half of a whole. ~ Courtney Cole

I love you. I love how you are so sweet and innocent and kind to people, but you are such a vixen in the sack. I love how you look at me. I love your smile. I love everything about you. ~ Courtney Cole

Free will is an illusion, my father answers and his words his words his words are so dark. ~ Courtney Cole

I can never watch you die again," I cried as tears streaked down my cheeks and fell onto him "I cannot do it. Are you listening? ~ Courtney Cole

She's the reason I came to your house, remember? She called me or I wouldn't have known that things were so bad. She loves you, Pax. And if there's anything that you should take away from this is that you need to live for today. Tomorrow is not promised to you. ~ Courtney Cole

My screams were loud enough to reach the corners of the earth. ~ Courtney Cole

We must stand together and resist all such incursion! We must come together in brotherhood and toss out those like you - women who take a man's job, who rob a man of the ability to feed his family."
"Who is 'we'?" Jessica peered at the empty green hedge behind him. "You appear to be alone."

"I speak for all working men! ~ Courtney Cole

Looking up, I stare into the most unique and beautiful shade of blue that a pair of eyes has ever possessed. Of that I am certain. Blue just shouldn't be that multi-faceted and twinkling. There should be a law or something.
Or at least a warning label:
Caution, these eyes may cause female knees to tremble.
Looking up, I stare into the most unique and beautiful shade of blue that a pair of eyes has ever possessed. Of that I am certain. Blue just shouldn't be that multi-faceted and twinkling. There should be a law or something.
Or at least a warning label:
Caution, these eyes may cause female knees to tremble.
Before I can help it, I scan the rest of him. Sweet Mary. This guy had lucked out in the gene department. Tall, slender, beautiful. Honey colored hair that had natural highlights that could even catch the crappy airport light, broad shoulders, slim hips, long legs. He is tan and golden with a bright, white smile.
I am surely staring at Apollo, the god of the sun. ~ Courtney Cole

God I loved that man. Love flooded every cell in my body and I felt physically ill at the thought of never seeing him again. ~ Courtney Cole

Dedication

To anyone who has ever found comfort in oblivion. ~ Courtney Cole

I'm doing all I can to stay afloat in a sea of insanity, but I'm drowning more and more each day. ~ Courtney Cole

Serva me, servabo te. Save me and I will save you. ~ Courtney Cole

Love never fails, Mila. That's what your parents believed. And because of you, it's what I believe now, too. You stuck by me and loved me when I didn't deserve it. All I want is a chance to prove that I can be worthy of it. Your parents were sort of fucked up in their own way, like me, and they never got the help that they needed. But I will. I promise. I will put the work in. I will learn how to cope with painful things and I will never leave you again. Just tell me that you'll stay with me. ~ Courtney Cole

Time, it seemed, was not our enemy after all. It was just air and space and hours. Anything worth having was able to withstand it. ~ Courtney Cole

Foolish, foolish men," she muttered. "They need you to prevail. ~ Courtney Cole

You aren't understood, and I can't explain it. That doesn't mean you're crazy. ~ Courtney Cole

The only thing worse than drowning in grief is sharing a lifeboat with other drowning people. Besides, if anyone needs a grief group, it's him. ~ Courtney Cole

After a thousand years pass, it builds its own funeral pyre, lining it with cinnamon, myrrh and cassia. Climbing to a rest on the very top, it examines the world all throughout the night with the ability to see true good and evil. When the sun rises the next morning, with great sorrow for all that it sees, it sings a haunting song. As it sings, the heat of the sun ignites the expensive spices and the Phoenix dies in the flames.

But the Phoenix is not remarkable for its feathers or flames. It is most revered for its ability to climb from its own funeral pyre, from the very ashes of its old charred body, as a brand new life ready to live again once more. Life after life, it goes through this cycle. It absorbs human sorrow, only to rise from death to do it all again. It never wearies, it never tires. It never questions its fate. Some say that the Phoenix is real, that it exists somewhere out there in the mountains of Arabia, elusive and mysterious. Others say that the Phoenix is only a wish made by desperate humans to believe in the continuance of life.
But I know a secret.
We are the Phoenix. ~ Courtney Cole

He kisses me with abandon, like he's not afraid of the consequences, like it's only him and me, and there's nothing else around us. ~ Courtney Cole

You're too good to me," she announces. "Not possible," I answer. ~ Courtney Cole

This was too much craziness for any one person to handle without ice cream. ~ Courtney Cole

She's like a breath of fresh air.
I may be the Big Bad Wolf, but even wolves need to breathe. ~ Courtney Cole

I love you," I tell him again. "I see that," he laughs, kissing me. "Simple words would have sufficed. You didn't need to knock me down with it." I giggle. "Shut up and kiss me. ~ Courtney Cole

Sometimes we hurt those that we love the most ~ Courtney Cole

Mila, that day, in your shop almost crushed me. When you said no to me, I didn't know if I would survive it, but I knew I had to. I knew that i had to change, for me and for you. And I think I have. I'm still working on it ... it's going to be a process. But I'm willing to put in the work. Forever, if that's what it takes. So ... I'm going to ask you again, babe. Stay with me. Stay with me here in my house. It's only a five minute drive to your shop when it's open. And you can use the studio for your art. I promise to try not to snore. And to put the toilet seat sown. Most of the time, anyway. Just stay with me. Please. I never want to be away from you again. ~ Courtney Cole

But heads and hearts don't always agree; and my heart was guilty as hell. ~ Courtney Cole

Sometimes bad things happen in life. Sometimes they happen when you're really young. Those are the memories that won't fade with time. ~ Courtney Cole

She pulled away, almost out of breath, and gazed up into his eyes. They were dark with passion and fire, fit within by a golden glow that sent her pulses racing.
"What was that for?" he asked huskily.
"Do I need a reason?"
"Never. ~ Victoria Lynne