Neil Hilborn Quotes

Happy people don't make history. Happy people make children, then die.

I have to tell you what's at stake here: when we were young, we were both in relationships that we thought would never end, not like I will love you even when it goes dark, more like It's so dark out there. How could you survive without me? People have taken so much from me that I don't know how I'm not gone.

So now we're here and we are not dead, and Mom, what's more punk rock than living despite all that which has tried to make you not?

I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that's never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave. See, when I'm up I don't kill myself because, holy shit, there's so much left to do. When I'm down I don't kill myself because then the sadness would be over, and the sadness is my old paint under the new. The sadness is the house fire or the broken shoulder: I'd still be me without it but I'd be so boring.

Depression wasn't an endless grey sky, it was no sky at all. I've got to go somewhere. I've got to go. It

Maybe things happen for a reason but that reason is stupid... I am a flat tire and you are a pothole full of lug nuts. I am a pile of bricks and you are holding a sledgehammer, which is to say I would not exist without you.

I'm not going to tell you how to live your life, but maybe you should listen to your feet when they tell you to run the fuck away. Maybe you should get out of here, then get out some more.

I can pinpoint the session that brought me back to the world. That session cost $75. $75 is two weeks of groceries. It's a month of bus fare. It's not even a school years worth of new shoes. It took weeks of $75 to get to the one saved my life. We both had parents that believed us when we said we weren't OK, but mine could afford to do something about it. I wonder how many kids like Joey wanted to die and were unlucky enough to actually pull it off. How many of those kids have someone who cared about them but also had to pay rent? I'm so lucky that right now i'm not describing Joey's funeral.

I wanna thank you for making all the love songs mean something again

god bless the shape your head leaves in my pillow; god bless your insatiable hair; god bless you, though the hour is late, for you have come to me at last.

It's unfortunate that your offspring make people wish for a dystopian future in which euthanasia is a universally beloved form of birth control, but when elderly women literally everywhere are better parents than you, perhaps it's time to hang up the baby-making spurs.

The way / your life is sharper once it's gone.

Hope is a thing I drag out of storage
when I am done thinking; hope answers
my phone; hope breaks my furniture
and helps me rebuild before the next
party; hope turns into more hope
unless it does not in which case
it turns into more or less less
than what I had hoped for; hope
sinks; hope drinks with me and against
me; hope is my ride home; hope is
asleep, I'm asleep, dear god, I can't
stop sleeping.

When you're dumb enough for long enough, you're gonna meet someone too smart love you, and they're gonna love you anyway, and its gonna go so poorly.

Humans always want something from you and he and I would just rather be together than apart, and I pulled him toward me, and he chitterred in the way that always meant he was wind coming in after the rain. His head fell forward, and there was so much less light in the room.

I never cry at things outside of my head because they all seem so far away.

my house only felt like a home underwater, in floods; my father was an astronaut because to me stars or the distant flashing of satellites seemed closer than wherever he was; when

Imagine if fire extinguishers were full
of snow. Imagine the fun we could have.

When the winds are picking up, when
the sea around you turns from blue to grey,
when the sky grows veins of light
before you, let your arms become sails.
Keep the lighthouse at your back.

When I say / I am in love I am also saying the world / makes sense to me right now.

The Future has been at war, but it's coming home so soon; the future is the map and the treasure; the future looks like a child in a cape; the future is just like gravity: everyone is slowly drifting toward everyone else. We are all going to be part of each other one day...

I will have fun like my life depends on it cause it does.

she loved me once, though it wasn't for very long, though it was distracted, though it shouldn't have happened, once, she loved me

I think that the genes for being an artist and mentally ill aren't just related, they are the same gene, but try telling that to a bill collector. We

I think I am only still here because I was too scared to make the first cut

How to kill yourself without hurting anyone.

Don't.

...and I am sitting in this park watching an old couple almost cry together, and I want this to be the most important thing I do all year.

I am just carbon and bad timing

Flight is just a fall that never reaches the ground.

Alex, since I'm still here, I have to act
as though I meant to be here. Once
it snowed, and it wasn't that I felt
great, because I felt awful, but awful
is better than nothing. Depression wasn't
an endless grey sky, it was no sky
at all. I've got to go somewhere. I've got to go.

Things that I Hope Are True about Heaven

That the radio always plays what would have been your favourite songs. That there's always coffee if you want it. That you're there. That it's real.