Alison Espach Quotes

My father moved out a week later. I hugged him at our front door and couldn't bear to watch him leave with so much luggage.

When it was real it wasn't funny. When you touched someone, they were always with you. When his mouth was on mine, we held the same breath in the same moment, and when he was naked, his body was covered in tiny black hairs that stuck to my clothes even after I washed them. He had sowly become a part of me and when he was cruel, or cold, or acted like we couldn't go on like this anymore it felt like he was ripping my limbs off, one at a time.

Inside my house, nobody was home, except everybody, but it was easy to feel like those were one and the same.

Janice was intrigued. "Wouldn't you die from that?" she asked, determined to love him forever.

There is nothing better than this, he said, and I worried he was right. I worried that once something had entered you, it would never leave - he would plant himself inside me and grow and grow until I was nothing but him.

You Americans so quiet because you Americans don't know anything for real. You know your gas prices, you know your baseball numbers but do you know that no piece of paper can be folded more than seven times?

And yet, every day, it seemed, I was discovering new ways to feel fourteen again. Everyday, there were new ways to be disappointed by the conversation, by the weather.

All fathers are liars ... If you want to be a father, you have to be prepared to become a liar.