Alicia Cook Quotes

I need to stop renaming the decisions I've made as mistakes just because I wish I could take them back.

I am going to be the woman you fear. my true self. (Track Twenty-Five Remix)

self-destruction destroys
more than just the individual.

Just because I don't trust you
doesn't mean I have trust issues.
Just because I won't commit to you
doesn't mean I have commitment issues.
Just because I watch what I eat
doesn't mean I have body image issues.
Just because people have left my life
doesn't mean I have abandonment issues.
Just because I yearn to grow and evolve
doesn't mean I have identity issues.

I know exactly who the hell I am.
(Track Fourteen)

Imagine the anguish felt
by having your very own existence
on the tip of your tongue.

Your life will never be the same, ever, so you can never be the same, ever. Pain will make you stronger, but it will make you a lot of other things first.

The first time my heart broke, I thought back to
the day in my childhood when a piece of glass went
through my finger after an ill-fated cartwheel.
I was eleven years old.
My mother and I were in our bathroom cleaning
up the wound. She dribbled peroxide onto the cut.
It fizzed and burned; I winced at the pain.
It needs to burn so you know it's healing,
she explained.
That small exchange during my adolescence helped
me learn to appreciate the pain pulsating from my
broken heart. In spite of the severity of my wound,
I knew the healing process had already begun.

You always want one more day.
You always want one more picture
as the old ones begin to fade.
You always want that one final hug
to have lasted just a tad longer.
You always want the fondness
of the remember-whens
to outnumber the might-have-beens.
You want more years, more months,
more weeks, more days,
more minutes, and more seconds.
You want the happily ever after
you always thought you deserved,
but the only thing actually promised
in this life is uncertainty.

If you are feeling lost,
helpless,
down,
sad,
angry,
betrayed,
you name it,
you can rise from it,
you can create from it,
you can grow from it.
I am living proof
the most turbulent year of one's life
could also turn out to be
the greatest, more rewarding year, too.

I was kind to you because I desperately wanted You or the idea of you (Track Forty-Five Remix)

I'm not the one who got away. Late nights and loneliness have built me up in your head...the next time the smell of Chanel fills up a room, and you find yourself reminded of me, try to remember: I never even wore perfume. (Track Thirty-Five)

The strongest people I know
have been overtaken by their weaknesses.
They know what it's like to lose control.
The strongest people I know
have cried in the shower and in their car.
They know loss and guilt all too well.
The strongest people I know aren't bulletproof.
They have felt the searing pain of life's shots.
The strongest people I know
make the decision every day to wake up
and place their two feet on the ground
even though they know the monsters beneath
their bed will grab at their ankles.
The strongest people I know
are not strong by definition, at all.
They are mistake-makers.
They are mess-creators.
They are survivors.