Alexis Hall Quotes

The nice thing about having a deeply weird, highly opinionated friend was that you never had to be the centre of attention if you didn't want to be. The ~ Alexis Hall

As a general rule, I'm suspicious of unassuming men in their late fifties because they're usually terrifying supernatural monsters. ~ Alexis Hall

In the past, I walk between green lawns, surrounded by golden stone.
In the past, I am brilliant and I am happy and my every tomorrow is madness.
In the past, words shimmer around me on silver threads and I pluck them like summer peaches.
In the past, the universe is a glitterball I hold in the palm of my hand. I am the axis of the world.
In the past, I am soaring, and falling, and breaking, and lost. ~ Alexis Hall

As ever, it was fifty percent fashion show, forty percent club, ten percent sex party, and one hundred percent annoying. ~ Alexis Hall

I just don't fucking know, okay? I've never known. My entire life is just me pretending - not very well - that I have a clue what I'm doing. But I don't. I just don't. I don't have . . . like . . . a dream or a goal, and I don't know how to get one, or what's wrong with me that I don't. ~ Alexis Hall

And Laurie looks exactly the same, but I'm kind of hazy, and my brain wants to substitute Daniel Craig, and what the fuck kind of fantasy is this, where I'm played - in my own head - by somebody else? ~ Alexis Hall

I thought crocodiles lived under my bed and if my feet hung over the side, they'd get bitten off. So I slept in a ball. I think I still do actually." Oh God. Shut up. Shut up. "Out of habit, I mean, not crocodiles. I d-don't think that anymore. Obviously."

He was quiet a moment. And then, faintly accusingly, "You know that's adorable, don't you?"

I tripped hard over adorable and couldn't think how to answer. So I said nothing at all, and merely enjoyed my few minutes in a dangerous puddle with a man who maybe thought I was adorable. ~ Alexis Hall

When you say together . . ."
"It'll help if I'm close to you physically."
"I bet you say that to all the girls. ~ Alexis Hall

If it wasn't for werewolf cousins, there'd be far fewer fashion interns, It boys, graphic novelists, bespoke shoe boutiques, and sushi-haggis fusion restaurants in the world. ~ Alexis Hall

There had been a subtle realignment of the spheres. The world was somehow a place I could endure again. If life was a grey corridor lined with doors, it was now within my power to open some of them. ~ Alexis Hall

That's the plan then, is it?" Ashriel spread his hands despairingly. "We assemble an unlikely team of misfits, descend into the sewers, and learn important lessons about friendship while getting murdered by faeries. ~ Alexis Hall

Behind my eyelids, I saw him dancing in spirals of coloured light, emerald, blue, and brilliant purple, enfolding him like the wings of an electric angel. ~ Alexis Hall

This is the story of my life: standing on the edges of things and worrying, when I'm supposed to just walk through them. ~ Alexis Hall

Knowing the lesson was one fucking thing. Learning it another. ~ Alexis Hall

I never interrupt people when they're speaking because I know only too well how annoying it is. But with my every brattish interjection, the dimples deepened at the corner of his lips. And I was half-drunk on his smiling and the power of saying things that made him smile. ~ Alexis Hall

I don't have many friends, but I think you're one of them. And friends don't send friends to get their souls sucked out. ~ Alexis Hall

All these still places in his soul that he disturbs for me. When ~ Alexis Hall

What do I do?"
There was nothing but love in him as he told me, "You suffer for me. ~ Alexis Hall

You do know you're one of the hot ones, right? You could have any dom in this room if you looked marginally more approachable than an underfed piranha having a bad day. ~ Alexis Hall

My world was one of only broken images, like I was standing always on the threshold of a mirror, unable to tell the reflection from the real. The shining city and the blasted heath-the truth lay somewhere between, a thin grey line, slender as the edge of knife. ~ Alexis Hall

He grinned, teeth and dimples and freckles moving like dust in a ray of sunlight. "Ayup, petal."

Oh ~ Alexis Hall

Did happiness always used to be this complicated?" Amy asked after a bit.
I shrugged, " I have no idea. Happiness and I are barely on speaking terms these days. ~ Alexis Hall

I don't want fine. Fine isn't enough. Isn't not about the open fire or whatever other clichés you can conjure up, but yes, I want a connection. I want you to care as much as I care. I want you to need it and want it and mean it. I want it to matter/i>. ~ Alexis Hall

but seeing as I ain't so flush right now, I'm afraid your quids'll have to come pro quo. ~ Alexis Hall

I'm not trying to upset you. I just think it's about time you moved on."

"I have moved on."

"Have you? Because it looks a lot like standing around to me. ~ Alexis Hall

I reckon they'd taste of stars. ~ Alexis Hall

The future is terrifying because it's full of stuff, not because it's empty. ~ Alexis Hall

Bitter experience has taught me that you don't engage with intellectually superior wankers who make long speeches about moral relativism. ~ Alexis Hall

I don't need you to take care of me."

"No, you need a kick up the arse. ~ Alexis Hall

Kink crowds are the same the world over. The good ones are already taken, the hot ones only talk to each other, and everyone else is desperate. ~ Alexis Hall

Oh, you fuckguzzling shitweasel. ~ Alexis Hall

Tonight there was something different. Something both deeper and shallower than friendship. Familiarity, perhaps, the sudden realisation that we lived our sealed-up little lives in closeness to each other. That we had something to share and something to lose. Something to protect together. ~ Alexis Hall

It's ironic, since they're supposed to be immortal, but vampires are kind of like small businesses: half of them go down within their first year ~ Alexis Hall

This isn't submission." "Isn't it?" "No." He looks up at me, tired as well, but he's never looked more beautiful to me than in this moment, strong and open and unafraid like when he surrenders his body. "It's love. ~ Alexis Hall

It's d-d-dishonourable to peek at someone else's cards."

"Cribbage is cutthroat. ~ Alexis Hall

I couldn't believe that lack of fear. It gave me vertigo, as though he was the edge of a cliff and I
couldn't bear the view. ~ Alexis Hall

He smiled. "Yeah. Reckon you could read the phone book and make it dirty. ~ Alexis Hall

Shouldn't we have a safeword?"
Maybe this isn't the right thing to say because, at last, he replies, "I'm kneeling at your feet while you wank. If I don't like it, I can stand up and walk away. ~ Alexis Hall

What's your name?"
"A.A.Winters."
"What, that's your name?"
"Yes," I said impatiently, "that's my name."
"That's what people call you?"
"Like in bed, or whatever? They call you A.A.Winters?"
I met his eyes. "No, in bed they call me God."
He laughed again, the same uninhibited cackle. "Like it ~ Alexis Hall

Sometimes I think that's all love is. Understanding, smoothing away your strangeness. Making you part of the world, not separate from it. ~ Alexis Hall

Pain was simply an inevitability of living, and I had to learn how to trust him with his own, as I trusted him with mine. ~ Alexis Hall

It was barely evening, but I crawled into bed. Depression-stupefied, weary and hopeless, I should have slept.
But I was strangely restless. Slightly tearful. And troubled by wayward thoughts.
Depression was thoughtless, tearless, an animal's pain.
Some hours later, I realised.
I wasn't depressed. I was sad. ~ Alexis Hall

It's its own universe somehow, this cycle of reaction, reaction, reaction, him and me, flogger and him, flogger and me, all connected. The best thing, though, is when the falls land...the impact travels all the way from his body to mine, through the leather, then the handle, through my arm and to my heart. We're so...together. ~ Alexis Hall

I needed him to stop looking at me like that. It was casual. The way he'd ook at anyone, I was sure. But it made me feel so very there. ~ Alexis Hall

I'm not here because I'm broken. I'm here because I'm whole. Difficult, potentially undeserving, but whole. And I don't need you, I just want you. I want you" - my voice had gone embarrassingly husky - "so fucking much. And - " Another breath, another breath. " - maybe I love you. Or could love you. Or might love you. Or may come to love you." There was a dizzy rushing in my brain, as though I was about to faint or have a nosebleed. "Or whatever. ~ Alexis Hall

Thank you," was all I could think to say. But it wasn't just a dominance game. I meant it. Thank you for the pain. Thank you for letting it mean so much to you. Thank you for believing I'm beautiful. Thank you for making me feel so powerful. Thank you for loving me. Thank you. Thank you. ~ Alexis Hall

It's still the second nicest fing anyone has evva done for me"
"The second nicest? What's the first?"
He kissed my arm, right over the worst of the scarring, where his name began "Well, there was this boy who was like just a boy and he stood in front of me, asking me to love 'im ~ Alexis Hall

Werewolves protect their own. Vampires protect their own. Mages protect their own. Faeries are just bat-shit crazy and dump their kids on people's doorsteps. It's a funny old world. ~ Alexis Hall

A soft pulse of desire went through me, not for sex or pain or humiliation or some other release, but for this, this quiet closeness. Someone to hold in the dark. ~ Alexis Hall

You smell of shadows and dreams. And dead things. ~ Alexis Hall

I half imagined I could taste the silver on his nails, as sharp as glitter in my mouth. Maybe when he touched me, colour would spill from his hands like heat. ~ Alexis Hall

I tried to go back to sleep, but knowing somebody had been watching took all the fun out of being unconscious. ~ Alexis Hall

I fended them off as best I could while trying to shield my eyes but, tragically, I'd left my flamethrower in my other suit. ~ Alexis Hall

Why, in all the vastness of the world, did a sparkly idiot from Essex make me feel alive? ~ Alexis Hall

How can you miss something you've never really had? ~ Alexis Hall

Life is so full of rough edges - small tasks and expectations that scratch you bloody and remind you that you're naked and alone. ~ Alexis Hall

Whats the name you Poms have for that thing where you jump up and down and hit each other with sticks?"
"Sex?"
"Gardening?"
He snapped his fingers. "Morris dancing. ~ Alexis Hall

I mean, I kind of feel alphas are the romance equivalent of an impulse buy. It looks great in the shop but then you get home and it's like where am I going to put this thing? It doesn't go with my furnishings and it keeps trying to kiss me punishingly. ~ Alexis Hall

My heart, I think, turned tender in the untouched dark. I'm full of small, gathered hopes that, if I let them, will fly away from me, as fragile as dandelion seeds. The ~ Alexis Hall

I had no idea it would be like this. That having someone on their knees for you would make you so vulnerable. ~ Alexis Hall

Monster Fighting Rule Number Twelve: Never Assume It's Dead.

Monster Fighting Rule Number Thirteen: No, Really, Never Assume It's Dead. ~ Alexis Hall

But I suppose it comes down to whether you think dominance and submission are about acts or about people.
Laurie, For Real ~ Alexis Hall

It's not what you do, it's what it means. ~ Alexis Hall

It's not something you can put your finger on, like height (though he's taller than me) or strength (though he's stronger than me), but there's something there. This power. Like being ordinary is just a mask he wears. ~ Alexis Hall

You know you're wearing pyjamas wrong, right?"
He didn't look up. "Oh?"
"Yeah, you're supposed to just wear the bottoms, and have them hanging low on your hips, displaying your perfectly chiselled V-cut."
"Maybe next time."
I thought about this for a moment. "Are you saying you have a perfectly chiselled v-cut?"
"I'm not sure that's any of your business."
"What if someone asks? I should know for verisimilitude."
The corners of his mouth twitched slightly. "You can say I'm a gentleman and we haven't got that far."
"You" – I gave a thwarted sigh – "are a terrible fake boyfriend."
"I'm building fake anticipation."
"You'd better be fake worth it."
"I am. ~ Alexis Hall

Oh...I cant. I cant dance."
"What, not at all? Not even when you hear ABBA?"
"I do my very best not to hear ABBA. ~ Alexis Hall

And Dad. But what would he say? How would he stop me, how would he help me, now he can't sneak his love in next to yours as if I wouldn't notice, and say "your mother thinks" or "your mother wants"? ~ Alexis Hall

Okay." He popped everything into the fridge. "Now I just need to grab some things from upstairs."
"For the pie?"
"For you. Give me like...five minutes. And--" he flashed his toothiest grin "--take you clothes off."
I froze. "When you said you wanted lemon meringue pie and filthy sex, I didn't think you meant together."
"That's what you get for underestimating me. ~ Alexis Hall

The sight of him stirred a wanting that was starting to feel familiar, though it was less frantic tonight. It was a warm, steady thing, like a heartbeat. ~ Alexis Hall

He did his thing, and I did mine. Mine involved standing there with a sword in a bin liner waiting for something to try and kill us. Nothing did. ~ Alexis Hall

I gotta say, babes," he said in a nasal Essex whine, "you're giving me sutcha bedroom look."
I stared down into his face, so close to mine. Babes? ~ Alexis Hall

I had only questions, uncertainties, and shame. A kiss that was not a kiss from a man who was not a man. ~ Alexis Hall

I couldn't afford to tangle myself up in other people's expectations and inevitable disappointment. It would be awful. An ever-expanding cycle of everyone feeling bad, like a bulimic serpent eating its own tail. ~ Alexis Hall

He was wearing a gleaming cream-coloured linen suit, and a Panama hat. The weirdest thing about this was that he was not the most outlandish-looking person in the room by a long way. Not that Little Miss Dresses-Like-Bogart over here has a right to complain ~ Alexis Hall

...he wails and protests and loves me even more. And I'm humbled and honoured and touched and so fucking happy he can find this thing in me to love. ~ Alexis Hall

This was another fossil of a joke. I couldn't remember where it'd come from, I had a horrible feeling it might have been me. ~ Alexis Hall

I slam into him like a really short, skinny juggernaut showing serious commitment to getting into some guy's arse. ~ Alexis Hall

Let me down right now, you impotent angst puppy. ~ Alexis Hall

And now he smiled at me. All teeth. The way only people who hadn't learned self-consciousness
knew how to smile. ~ Alexis Hall

I was the climber of a sheer cliff, dragging myself on bleeding hands towards a summit that I'd never reach and sometimes didn't want to reach. The things I cared about were the hooks I'd driven into the rock face. Depression snapped them, one by one, one by one. My only certainty was the fall. ~ Alexis Hall

That's so sexy," said Julian dryly. "Hamster cheeks totally do it for me. ~ Alexis Hall

What the hell are you implying? Yes, I've slept around but I'm not Alexander Fleming's petri dish. ~ Alexis Hall

You smell of cheap cigarettes and dirty sex. ~ Alexis Hall

He was like a nearly-there Rubik's Cube - this sealed box, all perfect edges and matched-up colors, except for the occasional hopeless misalignment, a lost orange square and a yellow piece stuck in a corner. Though why I thought this made me the right person for him I have no idea.
I'd never solved one of those fuckers in my entire life. ~ Alexis Hall

Days passed in a grey fog. I was becalmed. Without energy, without hope, with no sight of land, I could remember feeling better but I somehow couldn't believe in it. There was nothing but this. ~ Alexis Hall

The cottage pie was about as wholesome and straightforward as you could get. It was food for winter evenings and happy days. And the salad was rich, complicated, a little bit sweet, and seemed to be trying way too hard to be impressive. We'd both served each other a metaphor. ~ Alexis Hall

I want to give him everything, and the things I can't give, I want him to take. ~ Alexis Hall

Clearly when you're immortal, life is no longer too short to stuff a mushroom. ~ Alexis Hall

Please." Laurie's voice is this distant swirl of panic and fear, cracking a bit. "Please don't leave. ~ Alexis Hall

in my experience, everybody hurts everybody. The trick is picking the kind of hurt you want to live with. ~ Alexis Hall

I'm not saying you should marry wossisname. Just give yourself a chance with him."

"A chance to what?"

"Be with someone again."

"I w-w-want to," I whispered. "But what if it goes the same way? W-what if I'm unbeable with? ~ Alexis Hall

Not at all. You just have to teach people to value someone else's access to spoons as much as they value their own."

I tried not to stare at him. How did someone like this just . . . happen? Random act of atoms? Or was there a god somewhere who, thirty years or so ago, had woken up one morning and thought, What the universe needs right now is someone to think deeply about teaspoons. ~ Alexis Hall

Will you stop comparing me to your grandparents? Or I'm going to think there's something peculiar in your continued interest in sleeping with me ~ Alexis Hall

Shut up. For the love of Jesus fucking Christ on a moose, shut up. I'm trying to get off here."
He fell on top of me, howling with laughter. And, somehow, in that ridiculous tangle, his hand moving awkwardly against my cock as he snuffled hysterically against my ear, and me yelling at him, my body shaking with frustration, amusement, pleasure, bewilderment, so much bewilderment, I did, in fact, get off. ~ Alexis Hall

Alfie watched the wavering shadows from the street moving across the sky like an upside-down reflection. There was a little piece of fading moon tucked between the clouds like it was falling out of someone's pocket. ~ Alexis Hall

It's my responsibility to communicate to you what I'm feeling and what's too much, and it's your responsibility to be receptive to that communication. I don't necessarily believe the best way for that to happen is me saying 'banoffee pie. ~ Alexis Hall

It's difficult, sometimes, for me to understand that I have the power to hurt someone. You see, it requires me to accept that somebody might like me in the first place. ~ Alexis Hall

That's sort of what love is, I guess. A perpetual state of semideranged partiality. ~ Alexis Hall

The terrible powerlessness of being unable to do anything except wait for mercy you couldn't earn and didn't deserve. ~ Alexis Hall

Then we'll be lost together, and we'll figure it out together. Whatever that means. Whatever it takes. I'm with you, and I'll be with you for as long as you want me. ~ Alexis Hall