Adam Silvera Quotes

I'll never understand how time can make a moment feel as close as yesterday and as far as years. ~ Adam Silvera

You may be born into a family, but you walk into friendships. Some you'll discover you should put behind you. Others are worth every risk. ~ Adam Silvera

It's weirdly possessive and obsessive to like someone; you want to learn all of his stories before anyone else and sometimes you want to be the only one who knows at all. ~ Adam Silvera

Leaving means living before you die ~ Adam Silvera

I have this thing where if someone likes me, I feel like I tricked them into it. Like I can't trust it. I'll fuck it up somehow, like with Hudson. ~ Adam Silvera

It's okay how some stories leave off without an ending. Life doesn't always deliver the one you would expect. ~ Adam Silvera

If you're not a superhero or a sorcerer, my memory is bad at retaining any information about you. ~ Adam Silvera

you can't always choose who you're going to be ~ Adam Silvera

Believe me, I know it can get ugly out here. There was a point where I didn't think any of this was worthwhile. ~ Adam Silvera

Sometimes pain is so unmanageable that the idea of spending another day with it seems impossible. Other times pain acts as a compass to help you get through the messier tunnels of growing up. But the pain can only help you find happiness if you can remember it. ~ Adam Silvera

I may not be able to cure cancer or end world hunger, but small kindnesses go a long way. ~ Adam Silvera

What's a colder word for freezing?" Jackson asks, bundled from head to toe in my dad's coat, hat gloves, and the scarf I forced on him.
"Fucking freezing?"
Jackson nods. "It's fucking freezing. I'm not sure I really want a snowman best friend anymore. ~ Adam Silvera

Some people know a lot about a little, others know a little about a lot. ~ Adam Silvera

Kneel before the king, Griff." I look around for the king. "Me, asshole. I'm the king. Who else would be the king? Wade?"
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"On this rainy Thursday, I, King Theo of New York City, praise you, Sir Griffin of New York City, for your vast knowledge of fantasy novels I"ll never take the time to read myself. And for having the kind of laugh that I like hearing so much I would punch myself over and over if you found it funny. ~ Adam Silvera

I don't want to be me. I don't want to second-guess if my friends are going to be okay with me being me, and more importantly, I don't want to see what happens if they're not. ~ Adam Silvera

I realize I'm crying a little, too. I remember. Sometimes pain is so unmanageable that the idea of spending another day with it seems impossible. Other times pain acts as a compass to help you through the messier tunnels of growing up. But pain can only help you find happiness if you remember it. ~ Adam Silvera

There has to be more to life than just imagining a future for yourself. I can't just wish for the future; I have to take risks to create it. ~ Adam Silvera

You're Penny's shot at happiness in a world that makes cheap promises and has no guarantees and doesn't always reward those who never did wrong. It's like, the world will just as easily screw with a good person as it will a not-so-good one, but you devote your days to someone else selflessly anyway. ~ Adam Silvera

Here we are, two boys sitting in a cemetery as it begins drizzling, trading stories in my half-dug grave, as if we're not dying today. ~ Adam Silvera

If I can fly here for you, where will I go for me? ~ Adam Silvera

Maybe it's better to have gotten it right and been happy for one day instead of living a lifetime of wrongs. ~ Adam Silvera

The strongest power above all is a living heart. Humanity is what makes heroes, not powers. The strongest power is humanity. ~ Adam Silvera

but until then I promise to be the Mario to your Luigi, except I won't hog the spotlight. ~ Adam Silvera

I'm not sure about this newness I should look forward too, but I know this begins with me trying to become my own rock. I've leaned on Jackson for the better part of this past month and Wade before that. Being my own rock is promising, but it would be a huge lie if I didn't admit that becoming a mountain with someone else could be equally rewarding. ~ Adam Silvera

Getting up means leaving," I say.
"Yeah," Rufus says.
"Leaving means dying," I say.
"Nah. Leaving means living before you die. Let's bounce. ~ Adam Silvera

I am more happy than not, Don't forget me ~ Adam Silvera

Every universe I've created lately, your face keeps popping up in it. ~ Adam Silvera

While we can't always engineer our own happy endings, we can learn how to be more happy than not with the cards we've been dealt. ~ Adam Silvera

Remember when we had trouble beating the last few levels of Zelda? We pooled our allowances and bought the walk-through guide to help us out.' He softly adds, 'You should've asked for help before cheating. ~ Adam Silvera

Where the fuck is a Time-Turner when you need one? ~ Adam Silvera

But what if the story should quit while it's ahead?" "How do you know unless you give the story another chance? ~ Adam Silvera

It's almost as if we're made of the same messed-up clockwork, ticking and ticking out of balance ~ Adam Silvera

People need people. That's that. ~ Adam Silvera

It's been rewarding to be this honest lately. I'm determined to stay this honest, as if lives depend on it, which I guess they sort of do. No one will die if I lie, but lives can grow and be fuller when I tell the truth. ~ Adam Silvera

When someone makes you happy, it's pretty impossible to cage the excitement. ~ Adam Silvera

HISTORY Sunday, November 13th, 2016 My ~ Adam Silvera

He didn't say that 'love is within' or 'love is all around you.' (...) love is a superpower we all have. But it's not always a superpower I'd be able to control, especially as I get older. Sometimes it'll go crazy and I shouldn't be scared if my power hits someone I'm not expecting it to. ~ Adam Silvera

In that moment, I wish my existence were as simple as being set on fire and exploding in the sky. ~ Adam Silvera

Your humanity is what makes you heroic, not your powers. ~ Adam Silvera

Maybe a bookshelf will topple over and that's how I go out -- painful, but there are worse ways to die. ~ Adam Silvera

I look up, and Jackson's eyes find mine. For a second, it almost feels like we're about to race into the hole to join you. Being buried alive has got to be better than whatever comes next. ~ Adam Silvera

The wound never closes and the pain remains, always piercing, always burning, always suffocating, always bleeding. ~ Adam Silvera

He talks a lot, which I'm fine with, and he's not good at maintaining eye contact, which sucks because I want to stare at this electric blue eyes. Punch me if I ever compare them to the sky or the ocean because they're much cooler than that. ~ Adam Silvera

Fine.I'll never die, Theo says, hugging me closer to him.
I mean it. Promise me.
I promise you:I'll never die ~ Adam Silvera

I think we're already dead, dude. Not everyone, just Deckers. The whole Death-Cast thing seems too fantasy to be true. Knowing when our last day is going down so we can live it right? Straight-up fantasy. The first afterlife kicks off when Death-Cast tells us to live out our day knowing it's our last; that way we'll take full advantage of it, thinking we're still alive. Then we enter the next and final afterlife without any regrets ~ Adam Silvera

But when I come back down, I remember something very crucial: Fuck, I have no idea how to have sex. ~ Adam Silvera

... the best fucking distraction of all is having someone who will hold me whenever I'm fucking lost and defeated. ~ Adam Silvera

The poetry you could write about Rufus helping me out of my grave isn't lost on me. ~ Adam Silvera

I want to wake up. And if I can't wake up, I want to go to sleep forever where there's a chance I dream everything beautiful about you, like how you looked at me for me and not because you wanted to gawk at this fuckery on my face. ~ Adam Silvera

But this universe is the only one that matters, and I have one last question for you: I didn't get our history wrong, did I? ~ Adam Silvera

The memory of coming out to her the first time feels both familiar and unfamiliar, like an old bully you haven't seen in years but still kind of recognize, even all grown up. ~ Adam Silvera

If I'm going to have any chance of getting through today, tomorrow, and all the days that follow, I think I need to go back to the start, where we were two boys bonding over jigsaw puzzles and falling in love. ~ Adam Silvera

People have their time stamps on how long you should know someone before earning the right to say it, but I wouldn't lie to you no matter how little time we have. People waste time and wait for the right moment and we don't have that luxury. If we had our entire lives ahead of us I bet you'd get tired of me telling you how much I love you because I'm positive that's the path we were heading on. But because we're about to die, I want to say it as many times as I want---I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. ~ Adam Silvera

But when someone is grieving, a genuine smile is a small victory in the big battle. ~ Adam Silvera

Even if I'm gay?" I say the word out loud, about myself, because even though I never chose this, I can choose to accept it before it's too late. ~ Adam Silvera

happiness comes again if you let it. ~ Adam Silvera

I've spent years living safely to secure a longer life, and look where that's gotten me. I'm at the finish line but I never ran the race. ~ Adam Silvera

Love shouldn't only count when there's victory. ~ Adam Silvera

It's freeing to be in control. ~ Adam Silvera

Memories: some can be sucker punching, others carry you forward; some stay with you forever, others you forget on your own. You can't really know which ones you'll survive if you don't stay on the battlefield, bad times shooting at you like bullets. But if you're lucky, you'll have plenty of good times to shield you. ~ Adam Silvera

It hurts to admit it, but there were things in those letters that feel like Mom was taking a shot at me. Why did she write down that I was obsessed with singing songs from girl pop stars? Or how when she took Eric and me shopping for toys at CVS, I didn't let him bully me into buying a blue Power Ranger because I wanted to play with a Jean Grey action figure? I feel like it was her coded way of saying, "This is when I knew about you. ~ Adam Silvera

I may not be throwing fire, but I'm just as much a hero as anyone else. ~ Adam Silvera

This is still an ugly world. ~ Adam Silvera

Life isn't meant to be lived alone. Neither are End Days. ~ Adam Silvera

No matter how we choose to live, we both die at the end. ~ Adam Silvera

It's mad twisted, but surviving showed me it's better to be alive wishing I was dead than dying wishing I could live forever. ~ Adam Silvera

But hey, if there's one bright side to your dying, it's that you aren't around to tell me things I don't like hearing. I'm sorry. That was a dickhead thing to say. I need a condom for my mouth. ~ Adam Silvera

No one will be around to judge me tomorrow. No one will send messages to friends about the lame kid who had no rhythm. And in this moment, how stupid it was to care hits me like a punch to the face. I wasted time and missed fun because I cared about the wrong things. ~ Adam Silvera

Silence is sometimes better than someone speaking before they're ready. That is how lies slip out. ~ Adam Silvera

People are complicated puzzles, always trying to piece together a complete picture, but sometimes we get it wrong and sometimes we're left unfinished. Sometimes that's for the best. Some pieces can't be forced into a puzzle, or at least they shouldn't be, because they won't make sense. ~ Adam Silvera

She once promised me that nothing bad would ever happen, and then I grew up and everything went wrong, but I believe her this time because the worst thing that can happen is that nothing will happen at all. ~ Adam Silvera

I would've loved you if we had more time. ~ Adam Silvera

I kiss my Last Friend, because the world can't be against us, if it brought us together. ~ Adam Silvera

Why can't we have a chance?" I ask Rufus.
"A chance at what?" He's looking around, taking pictures of the arena and the lines.
"A chance at another chance." I say. ~ Adam Silvera

I have to push ahead with the people who don't take the easy way out, who love me enough to stay alive even whe life sucks ~ Adam Silvera

Even if I only got to spend that first drive to the planetarium with Theo, he broke me in a way everyone should be lucky to be cracked open at least once. I had the privilege of being destroyed by him until we found a better, real me inside of the person I was pretending to be. ~ Adam Silvera

I'm blown away by how happy you make me. Thank you for being there for me when I'm stupid enough to think I'd rather be alone. ~ Adam Silvera

I'm so happy you were my first, Theo, and you were worth all the heartache. ~ Adam Silvera

Happiness shouldn't be this hard. ~ Adam Silvera

I only care about the people who wanna be in my life. Like Rufus. Remember how he was nervous about coming out to us because he didn't wanna stop sharing a room with us since we had so much fun? That's someone who wants to be my life. And I wanna be there for his. However much of it is left. ~ Adam Silvera

Puzzles are sort of like life because you can mess up and rebuild later, and you're likely smarter the next time around. ~ Adam Silvera

Malcolm stares out the window, wishing he could glimpse Rufus on his bike turning a corner, and he finally cries, these loud, stuttering sobs, not because he'll now have a criminal record, not because he's scared to go to the police station, not even because Rufus is dying, but because the biggest crime of all tonight was not being able to hug his best friend goodbye. ~ Adam Silvera

You don't get to keep ignoring the past because you don't like it. ~ Adam Silvera

This is someone who's grieving over you, another human with his own human feelings who shouldn't be used as a weapon against you. But I'm a human too, with my own human feelings. You used our intimate history to create a future with someone else, and that's a thousand times worse.
You used our love against me. Now I'm using your love against you. ~ Adam Silvera

I'm lucky to have parents who know when to go to war with me and when to leave me alone in the battlefield. ~ Adam Silvera

Well, this all kind of reminds me of that blackout a few years ago. Remember? I was outside when it happened and it was so dark out I could barely see my own hand, let alone what was up the street. But I kept going forward, step by step, until I reached a familiar corner. Sometimes you just have to push ahead to find what you're looking for. ~ Adam Silvera

I kiss him and I call him beautiful and I tell him I love him and we go on past that finish line. We laugh and catch our breaths and we peel stickers off each other. No do-over needed. ~ Adam Silvera

I'm growing to hate the word love because it always sounds lame, but love shouldn't only count when there's a victory. ~ Adam Silvera

I was in love and love died and the pain you've left isn't pain I can see myself having the strength to face again. ~ Adam Silvera

Love, the hugest liar in this universe. ~ Adam Silvera

Life felt like it was going to be too long. I wanted out. ~ Adam Silvera

But there is the happiness he promised, too. He loves me without being in love with me and that's all I can ask of him. I don't even need to hear him say it to believe it. ~ Adam Silvera

I wonder if Batman would save Robin over his girlfriend of the week. (The Dark Knight gets around, man.) ~ Adam Silvera

From the shapes cast by the green paper lantern, you would never know that there were two boys sitting closely to one another trying to find themselves. You would only see shadows hugging, indiscriminate. ~ Adam Silvera

History remains with the people who will appreciate it most. ~ Adam Silvera

But I've pushed my limit and here's the truth: this is the most painfully confusing time in my life and he's the first person who said all the right words to me and reminds me of the first days of summer where you leave home without [your] jacket, and my favorite songs playing over and over. ~ Adam Silvera

Everything I did for him I did for me, too, because it made me happy to see him happy. That's not obsession, you dickhead, it's love." He's ~ Adam Silvera

Every mistake I've made, every wrong I've repeated, every unhealed headache: I feel it all and more as the weight of my old world crushes me. If you looked inside me, I bet you'd find two different hearts beating for two different people, like the sun and moon up at the same time, a terrible eclipse I'm the only witness to.

My worlds collided and I can't get up. ~ Adam Silvera

We were all lost and okay with not being found for a while. ~ Adam Silvera

But I need him as badly as I should be pushing him away. It's too weird a mix of ugly and hopeful. ~ Adam Silvera