Jane Harvey-Berrick Quotes

Everything has changed since I met you. I thought I knew who I was, what I was, but being with you, I've learned about the kind of man I want to be.

What do you think I've got here that I wouldn't give up in a heartbeat to be with you? There's nothing to keep me here: I'll go anywhere, do anything to be with you.

Do you know what I dream about? My dream would be to die looking at the lights on the Ferris wheel. When I get old, when my body has given up, that's what I want to see. And in that dream, you're standing next to me.

Contemplating leaving everything I had ever known of one ill-advised hour of passionate lunacy.

Now that's a sight for sore eyes, Sebastian. Maybe I should just leave you here: the hotel maids might appreciate that. Or, better still, maybe I'll take a photograph of you on my phone. Dont worry, I wont post it on the internet, it'll just be my screen saver.

I really want to take you to bed now, Aimee. I really fucking need to know that you're my girl.

It's like doing one of those dumb math problems: three people are driving at 20mph in a car carrying two gallons of gas and a horse doing yoga, when a car traveling at 30mph with two clowns drinking cola collides, what time is it in Tokyo? It doesn't make any sense and the only answer I ever come up with is who

Being close to death, I knew that I wanted to live. I wanted to experience it all. With Jack.

Our sex life seemed to be of great interest to everyone, and I hated that. Other women slyly commented that they'd heard us inside the RV. Well, they couldn't have heard Kes, because he was never loud, not even when he came. Embarrassingly, it must be my gasps and screams that they were hearing, unless it was the sound of me being thoroughly pounded. Yeah, not at all embarrassing.

Do you want kids?" I asked tentatively.
"It's just you've never said anything before."
Kes paused as he kicked off his pants. His eyes were guarded when he replied.
"Don't you?"
"I do. I think I do. Not yet, but one day."
Kes stared at me steadily.
"Do you want my kids?"
And then I understood . My poor boy still didn't believe that I'd stay. Why should he? No one in his world ever had before.

I'd marry you tomorrow if you'd have me.

I've met a lot of right men ... but it seems as if it's the wrong man that I'm attracted to.

Here in this room, with our bodies entwined, I felt that I could trust this fierce love that had shattered and rebuilt my life. But outside, the world was a cold and dangerous place. I didn't know if love would be enough.

There are many low points in a woman's life, but when a bloke who's been within a hair's breadth of getting his hand down your knickers decides that he's rather watch a children's sci-fi programme made with puppets fifty years ago, you can't get much lower. Just saying.

You are," I said, quietly. "You are gorgeous. Any guy would be crazy not to think so.

He'd asked me once if I was brave enough to take a chance on love. I finally knew the answer.
I love you, too, Sebastian. More than you'll ever know.

I can't, Caro, it's out of my hands now. But I promise it's temporary. I just ... after all this time ... I wanted us to be able to spend more than a few hours together." He stared at his hands. "I don't know when I'll see you again," he mumbled. "I've already waited ten years.

Perhaps life is what happens when you least expect it.

I don't deserve you," he said, softly. "I don't deserve to feel anythin' other than shit for what I've done.

Tall, over six foot, ripped, and with sandy-blond hair that was just a bit too long, tats running down both arms to his elbows, cheekbones you could file your nails on, and lips that were just perfect for biting.

One mistake.
That's all it took.
One fuckin', stupid, childish, dumb mistake.

I haven't changed how I feel. I still love you – I've always loved you. It's only ever been you.

I love you, too," I whispered so softly I didn't know if he'd heard me. "Ti amo tanto, Sebastian, sempre e per sempre.

I didn't leave because I didn't love you enough, Kes; I left because I loved you too much, and it was breaking my heart that you couldn't trust me. I'd done everything I could to fit into your world, and it still wasn't enough. There were things about your life that you didn't want to share with me - you must see that there's no future in a relationship like that?

Don't patronize me, Caro", he said, sounding even angrier. "You think I don't know what it means to make this commitment but I do ... Don't dismiss how I feel just because ... just because I'm younger than you.

People will see you with me," I spat out, thumping the steering wheel in frustration.
"Mmm, yeah," she said, her voice far away.

One day I'm going to buy you your own chocolate fountain – and then I'm going to dip my dick in it and see how much you really like chocolate.

When we finished our catch up, I lay back and tried to sleep. But I kept thinking about what Kes had said: that Heaven for him was me and the carnival.

I make mistakes and I move on. That's what I do, that's what I've always done. I leave, and other people leave. You're the first person in my whole life who stayed. And then you were taken away. But now you're here again ... and you're trying to leave me. That fucking hurts, too.

You make people happy. When you're in front of a crowd, nobody can think about their problems or their worries or anything else. You have a gift, Kes, an amazing wonderful gift. It's special, just like you.

Thank God for you, Caro.

Don't give up on me, Torrey," I said, not too proud to beg. "I've only got six-and-a-half weeks left. "God, don't leave me, sweetheart. Not now.

We wasted ten years and you're worried about a few thousand miles? Hell, we've got airplanes, we've got email, they've invented fucking cell phones. Jesus, if it comes down to it, I'll even write you a fucking letter.

Something making you smile, Hunter?"
"Yeah! I never got a round of applause before."
"Maybe she was applauding me."
"Nah, she thinks I'm a stud, I can tell.

This way, princess," and he ushered me inside.
I plopped down into the enormous captain's chair, staring at a dashboard that looked like it belonged on the Starship Enterprise.
Kes pushed a button and the engine roared into life.
"I can't believe you're here," he grinned at me.
"Neither can I!"
His smile dimmed. "I've waited a long time for this," he said.
Then he leaned across, gripping the back of my head as he kissed me thoroughly.

I'm so fucking happy you're here," he whispered. "It makes it hurt less.

What did I know of the kind of love that made it hard to breathe, where your body ached day and night for that connection with another, physically, mentally, spiritually? It was utterly new and terrifying and exhausting and wonderful. I was dazzled by the light that spilled from him into the shadow of my previous existence. He eclipsed everything, erased everything that had gone before. I was reborn - not just to him, but to myself. And I was ready for the adventure.

It wasn't perfect: so what? Life isn't perfect: life is what happens while you're waiting for your moment in the sun and if you miss it, waiting instead for the perfect illusion that Hollywood sells, then more fool you. I'd spent half my life waiting for the right moment: I was done with waiting.

Sebastian, women like sex just as much as men ... if it's good."
He tried to smile but still looked uncertain, his forehead creasing with worry.
"Am I ... ?"
He bit his lip.
I knew what he was trying to ask me.
"Yes, you're good. In fact I'd say you're amazing: in so many ways.

Jesus, if it comes down to it, I'll even write you a f*cking letter!"
"I'll write you on both sides of the f*cking paper, Caro.

The light was a sheen of white across my eyelids and I shifted in the bed, feeling a trickle of sweat down my back. I was too warm and the rattle of the generator outside was an annoyance. And then I felt Kes's breath on my neck as he spoke. "I've dreamed of this so many times, I can't believe it's real - that you're real. You were always there, just out of reach, and I'd wake up and find my bed empty. But now you're here.

God, Aimee, we'll make it work," he growled out against my skin. "I know we can make it work. Don't ever leave me again. Please, baby, please.

...don't let life be something that happens while you're looking in the other direction.

If he lays one finger on you, I'll fucking crucify him!

I reminded myself that according to the consensus of opinion, a forty-year-old woman was in her sexual prime, while a man's was at the age of 19. Which meant Sebastian was already past his prime: although there was no evidence that anyone had told him that.

LOOK IN THE MIRROR
THAT's YOUR
COMPETITION

Beautiful woman, I want to make love to you," he said, huskily. "God, I want you so bad right now.

Thank you for this, Sebastian. Thank you for bringing me."

Sebastian's expression told me that outdoor sex at the top of a mountain pass in the snow was suddenly on his 'to do' list.

No, baby, I'm all man," he said with a smirk, winking at her. "Want me to prove it?

They say there are no atheists in foxholes. I say there are no atheists when you're begging God to keep alive the person you love.

Yeah? Well, life happens while you're making other plans.

My beautiful boy, my lover, my friend. The man I thought I'd never see again. Sebastian.

Hunter: you promised me separate rooms, remember?"

He looked like I'd just told him Christmas was cancelled.

And, at last, I could hold him. I wrapped my arms around him and held him tightly, willing the darkness away, trying to heal him with my body, with my touch.
"I love you, Sebastian, please don't push me away. I love you."
"Oh God, Caro. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore; I'm so fucked up - I feel like I can't fucking breathe. Don't give up on me, Caro. Please don't give up on me. I need you, baby. I love you so much. I'm so sorry."
I could forgive anything now that he'd let me touch him.

Giving up only accomplishes one thing: failure.

He reached out and brushed his thumb along my bottom lip. "You're my girl, Aimee. No one else.

It's always been you, Caro. The first time I saw you, I thought you were the most beautiful girl that I'd ever seen. I thought you must be a princess like Cinderella. It's only ever been you.

I felt like my lungs weren't big enough to breathe her in, and my heart couldn't beat fast enough to love her the way I wanted to.

I was old enough to know that magic didn't exist, and young enough to hope that I was wrong. I was sure that if magic belonged anywhere in the world, it was living and breathing right across the road in Mr. Peterson's field.

I couldn't tell you why the carnival lured me with its sticky fingers and bright, whirling colors, except to say that it was different, and that excited me. I'd only read about 'different' in books, never experienced it for myself. Perhaps it was a case of be careful what you wish for.

Ten years ago he'd said these words to me, told me that he loved me. I'd believed they were the words of a lonely, infatuated boy: real, but not lasting. Now the same man was standing before me, saying that he'd loved me all this time – and that it was real. He didn't care that I was older than him; he didn't care that I was ridden with insecurities; and he'd forgiven me for doubting him.

I love you, Torrey Delaney. You don't have to say it back to me, but I love you. I didn't believe life was worth living until I met you. I'm so, so happy I was wrong.

I had no illusions about my role. Prince Charming with a price tag. I was the fantasy lover and like all fantasies, I vanished before dawn.

God, Caro. You make it all worthwhile," he said, kissing my hair. "Thank God for you.

I cocked my head on one side. "Is that what we have? A relationship?"
Kes looked taken aback. "Well, yeah." Then he hesitated, "What would you call it?"
"Well, at the moment, I'd say it's two old friends catching a ride together to go see the carnival."
Kes nodded. "Okay," he said. "Works for me."
"Just so you know," I sniffed, "that's the wrong answer. We're totally in a relationship."
Kes grinned. "Good. So we're both clear on that.

Why didn't you come back?" he sobbed.
"I waited and waited for you, like I said I would, but you never came back! Why? Why didn't you come back? I love you I love you I love you.

I chose love over law. And I didn't care.

What do you want, Lisanne?"
"You,"
"Are you sure? You don't get to have your first time again, baby doll. This isn't how I'd imagined it."
"You've imagined it… with me?"
"Are you fucking kidding me? You are hot. I've wanted you since I met you, but I figured you just wanted to be friends. That's cool. I like having a friend who's a girl."
"Can I just… can I touch you?"
He nodded slowly, his eyes following her hand as it moved shakily to his waistband.
Softly, she laid her hand over his crotch and felt his heat and hardness. He inhaled deeply.
"You are so fucking sexy.

You think I'm broken, don't you? You think I should be fixed. You want me to be normal. I'll never be your version of normal, Lis. I'll never be like you – like them."
"I'm not trying to fix you, Daniel. I just want you to be happy. I love you just the way you are.

I don't give a rat's ass what you think, David! I'm tired of you bullying me, putting me down, patronizing me, treating me like some sort of simpleton. I was supposed to be a partner in this relationship – that's what I signed up for. Not this!

I really want to kiss you right now.

Be happy, Caro, because that's what you deserve.
I love you, I have always loved you, and where I go after this world, I will always love you.
Sempre e per sempre.

Every time something goes wrong, you give up on us. You're killing me, Caro … I don't know what will happen…but neither do you. Maybe we'll make it…maybe we won't. But you're giving up before we've even tried. I don't understand. Why won't you take a chance?

I love you," I said. "What we have, you and me, it's what I thought love should be, but I'd stopped believing it existed.

It didn't matter what I wore, or how much sleep I'd had or not had, he always looked at me as if his world began and ended with me.

Come on, Aimee! If it's not Kes hauling you off to have his wicked way with you, then you're giving him these scorching looks across the bonfire. Hell, it makes me want to go take a cold shower, which is interesting seeing as you're a girl and I'm gay.

Don't it bother you? Sittin' here with ... with someone like me?

I'm so fucking happy you're here," he said, resting his forehead against mine.
"I'm not just here," I whispered. "I'm home.

For I have no pleasure in the death of anyone, declares the Lord God; so turn, and live

Oh you'd better believe it, baby! I'd ride you till you passed out from exhaustion, feed you a bacon sandwich, hose you down and start again.

I've waited too long to find you. I'm not letting you go now.

I'd been dazzled by him my whole life. And it wasn't fair. For either of us.

When your world crashes down...
When they all say you're out...
When your body is broken...
I will rise.
I will return.
And I will be undefeated.

You've always been my girl, Aimee. The only one who ever mattered. You know that, right?

Just because...because the sky is blue and the sea is green.

He didn't care what people thought about the way he looked. He knew that his tats, his piercings, the way he dressed, gave people a giant fuck off message, and that suited him just fine. That shit was deliberate.

God, Jordan, I'd fix it for you if I could.

But he interrupted me.
"None of that matters. And I think you're wrong anyway - I can't imagine not wanting you - note ever. You're smart and funny and I enjoy being with you even when we don't... when we're not... making love. When I was eight years old, I used to imagine that you were my girlfriend and that we'd run away together. And then you left and I'd lost my best friend, too. I used to dream about you coming back. As I got older, I... I began to understand the... the nature of my feelings for you better. I didn't think dreams could come true - but they have for me, Caro. Why are you so scared? I mean, forget all that legal bullshit... why do you keep trying to... I don't know, make me change my mind? What do you think I've got here that I wouldn't give up in a heartbeat to be with you? There's nothing to keep me here: I'll go anywhere, do anything to be with you." He sighed. "I know you have more to lose and I hate, hate that I'm responsible for that, but... Do you want to be with me? Forever. Sempre.

I wondered if he'd appreciate my help: maybe if I attacked her with a pool chair and beat her into putty, she'd be distracted enough to leave him alone.

When he performs, he is all of us, the person we wish we could be. He is the hero in all of us.

You're not alone now," she said.

The matter, Sebastian, is that you're a minor. What we've just done... what I've just done... it's against the law. It's a felony, for God's sake!

A lot can happen in six seconds.
Your whole life can change in a heartbeat.

I wasn't jokin'," he said, holding my gaze. "I'm just so fuckin' grateful that you're here." He took a deep breath. "And I really want to kiss you right now.